Depersonalization Support Forum banner

1 - 1 of 1 Posts

·
Registered
Joined
·
1 Posts
Discussion Starter · #1 ·
Hello guys,

I have been suffering from DP/DR for little over a year. It was probably building up for a while but I won't delve too much into the causes as I don't think they differ greatly from other people's causes. I did have a history of panic attacks/disorder/depressive bouts and was medicated for about a year before I chose to come off the meds (SSRI). Unfortunately, stress was building up in college and I had a horrible period of acute anxiety in November 2017. I remember I probably got 4 hours of sleep over the course of 8 days. From that point onwards, it just became worse. Anyways, I've had to take leave from college because my working memory, notion of time, ability to process and remember information is absolutely shot. I normally have a strong visual memory. I remember almost everything in images, even words and mathematical processes. Unfortunately, this state has taken away my ability to think in images. I still remember how to read but the words just fly past my brain instead of the natural process of encoding taking place. I have tried to keep up my brain activity (playing crosswords, reading small paragraphs) but to no real avail. I am mainly doing these things from fear that my brain will just shut down completely one day. Normally, I have a really good memory. I remember people's faces, expressions, mannerisms, details about their lives. I don't have to take many notes when I read as well. I normally just read and re-read chapters in college and took exams without taking too many notes before hand. Right now, I feel like I had better cognition when I was 10 years old. I wasn't always a very fast reader, but that improved with age. Are any of you in a similar position where you have had to take leave from work/college? I would like to put my brain to good use but unfortunately everything I do results in the same sensation of DP/DR (the symptoms of which usually get much worse when I try to cognitively engage myself). Any suggestions on how to make some money with such poor cognition/notion of time? I tried opening a trading account (I used to be a business major at Georgia Tech) but soon realized that my learning capacity is completely zero and everything was appearing like hieroglyphs. Thanks for your time folks. I wish you the best in your recovery from this debilitating state of mind.
 
1 - 1 of 1 Posts
Top