And there was me thinking that the chat room was for desperate serious people with dp wanting to share their experience and get some comfort from this nightmare illness............WRONG!!
Tonight the dp chatroom was being used by children playing silly games. Do these people really have dp or are they just here to take the piss?
They know who they are.
A sad night
I am really sorry that you feel this way Andy, but you are sadly mistaken about the chat rooms. I am 22 years old, and I don't know if you consider me a child as you spoke about in your post, but I've lurked in the forum for quite a long time and never even posted or came into chat. I have had panic attacks since I was 6 years old, ocd starting about the same time, and agoraphobia since I was 17. Then, at 20, I thought things in my life could not be any worse until I developed dp...and the hell that has been in my life since then is totally undescribable, it's the most horrid thing I have ever experienced in my life. I am totally dissociated from the world, phyiscally and mentally. I no longer have friends because I dont know what to say to them anymore. I feel as if I am in a perpetual dream, as if I have no emotions or feelings.
However, I said all this to say, I finally took the plunge and signed up to the board and came into chat so freaking nevous that I did not know what to do, these people do not even know me, but I was scared to death. Then, after a day or so I calmed down and started sharing with them; sharing my problems, sharing the good times and the bad times. These children as you call them are wonderful people. We laugh together, we cry together, and we are there for one another and I love them. I am sorry that you visit the chat during happy times; I think I have earned a happy time, for I have been sad for so long. When I am in the chat, I just feel so free more than I have felt in a long time. It's not all happy times in the chat, however. I have seen real sad times in chat where we are all feel dp so bad there will be 10 people in the room and no one is talking, but once we open up and let out our feelings, it seems that we all relate and get along. I am sorry, but these people are the family that I need. I thank them for being there with me through good and bad, and you are welcome to share the good times and the bad times with us as well. We need your support just as you could use ours. Hope to see you soon....