Hi. I've been lurking here for a few months now, wondering if this is the right place for me, wondering if I actually have DP or if I was just making something up inside of my head and so on. Recently I finally decided to get some professional help and went to see a Jungian Analyst, which I must say has been helping a lot, though obviously it'll be a really long and hard road. So anyway, I'm now fairly certain that I do have at least a mild case of DP - I don't literally watch myself from a 3rd person perspective and I don't usually have any of the symptoms of DR (2D vision etc.), just constantly live in a state of non-connectedness, loneliness, emotionlessness. So this is my introduction and a bit of background story.
I have been depressed for quite a while now - I'm 22 and I can remember being depressed replete with suicidal thoughts since I was about 11. I also have some sort of anxiety problem, so I guess the two untreated eventually led me to here.
I don't remember exactly when I first got DP'ed. The first time I remember feeling it - or perhaps being aware of it, I'm not sure - was when I was 14 and smoked some pot. So it's possible this is drug-induced but as far as I remember the feeling subsided when I came down and obviously I was pretty screwed up before that anyway. I really only became aware of feeling DP when I was about 17 and since then it's just been a sort of constant hazy feeling as though I am not real, can't feel etc.
I first self-harmed when I was 14 and have done so on occaision since, though nothing incredibly drastic. I pretty much lived in the shadow of suicide from about 12 to 19 but have more or less decided against the idea now.
So that's my quick introduction. I hope to stick around and try to make some sense of myself by drawing on our collective experiences. Finding a site like this to offer some support is definately something I need too, so I thank you all in advance.
I have been depressed for quite a while now - I'm 22 and I can remember being depressed replete with suicidal thoughts since I was about 11. I also have some sort of anxiety problem, so I guess the two untreated eventually led me to here.
I don't remember exactly when I first got DP'ed. The first time I remember feeling it - or perhaps being aware of it, I'm not sure - was when I was 14 and smoked some pot. So it's possible this is drug-induced but as far as I remember the feeling subsided when I came down and obviously I was pretty screwed up before that anyway. I really only became aware of feeling DP when I was about 17 and since then it's just been a sort of constant hazy feeling as though I am not real, can't feel etc.
I first self-harmed when I was 14 and have done so on occaision since, though nothing incredibly drastic. I pretty much lived in the shadow of suicide from about 12 to 19 but have more or less decided against the idea now.
So that's my quick introduction. I hope to stick around and try to make some sense of myself by drawing on our collective experiences. Finding a site like this to offer some support is definately something I need too, so I thank you all in advance.
