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Can't see a light anymore

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Hello everyone.

As I'm typing this, basically I feel like my body is numb/can't respond to touch properly. I feel cold, but touch and sensations feel very dull and far away.

I cannot feel much emotionally, but it's really the physical symptoms that are pushing me to feeling hopeless. It's been about a week-ish now since it began roughly. I'm not sure if it was just that I was over stressed and my mind couldn't take it anymore or what.

Initially, I had thought somehow smoking cigarettes (I stopped a little after I started feeling these things) somehow ruined my nerves or it was something to do with somehow having a neuropathy of sorts. Since before when trying to sleep I would get pain in my arms, but now everything has been replaced pretty much with a ghostly, depressing numbness.

Clothes feel weird, I can't feel hot and cold sensations properly it seems. I went to 3 separate doctors and all said it was depression/anxiety and gave me Ativan and an anti-depressant.

So...I'm kind of at a huge loss. I'm beginning to give up hope more and more. Waking up every morning to wondering if it will be gone or not. Still checking and I still have it. Jealous of others that are leading seemingly normal lives and can actually "feel" things.

So yeah...I don't know if this "loss" of physical sensation and most touch feelings is DP/DR related or if it is anxiety/Major Depressive Disorder. It feels like it came on so quickly. And like every time I touch my skin, it's like I'm dead and can't feel the top layer of skin.

I keep wanting to go to doctors and have them check or refer me to a neurologist because I feel like if it is something bad, I'm just wasting time...

I'm terrified I will be like this forever.

Thanks for reading...

So yeah...sorry about the long rant. These are how things are going for me right now.
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I'm scared if I ignore this it's only going to get worse, and worse and cause permanent damage.
I have this numbness symptom too it is my most prominent symptom. For me stress and anxiety make it worse so addressing that first is a good idea. All I can tell you is mine doesn't get worse unless I get really stressed but soon after it goes back to the way it was. It sounds like you you are under an enormous amount of distress right now and reducing that is the first thing that will help the numbness. You could go running, eat healthy, take vitamins, try melatonin or another sleep aid, distract yourself with anything, play a computer game, talk to someone, watch something funny on tv, drink some wine, meditate, whatever works. Also depersonalization is not known as a brain damaging condition rather a condition that causes brain dysfunction in certain areas. So if the dysfunction is corrected the depersonalization will resolve and sometimes all that takes is going easy on yourself, living a healthy lifestyle, and not letting the dp/dr dictate your life. For others it means therapy if you had childhood trauma or emotional abuse by parents and for others it is a matter of trial and error with medications. One thing that brings me a little relief from the numb body feeling is doing 10 minute guided body scan meditations on youtube. I like to do about one a day and it's supposed to be good for many things like stress reduction and feeling present which is the opposite feeling you get from dp/dr. Do you have derealization? Is your vision normal or does it seem distorted somehow?
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