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Can't see a light anymore

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Hello everyone.

As I'm typing this, basically I feel like my body is numb/can't respond to touch properly. I feel cold, but touch and sensations feel very dull and far away.

I cannot feel much emotionally, but it's really the physical symptoms that are pushing me to feeling hopeless. It's been about a week-ish now since it began roughly. I'm not sure if it was just that I was over stressed and my mind couldn't take it anymore or what.

Initially, I had thought somehow smoking cigarettes (I stopped a little after I started feeling these things) somehow ruined my nerves or it was something to do with somehow having a neuropathy of sorts. Since before when trying to sleep I would get pain in my arms, but now everything has been replaced pretty much with a ghostly, depressing numbness.

Clothes feel weird, I can't feel hot and cold sensations properly it seems. I went to 3 separate doctors and all said it was depression/anxiety and gave me Ativan and an anti-depressant.

So...I'm kind of at a huge loss. I'm beginning to give up hope more and more. Waking up every morning to wondering if it will be gone or not. Still checking and I still have it. Jealous of others that are leading seemingly normal lives and can actually "feel" things.

So yeah...I don't know if this "loss" of physical sensation and most touch feelings is DP/DR related or if it is anxiety/Major Depressive Disorder. It feels like it came on so quickly. And like every time I touch my skin, it's like I'm dead and can't feel the top layer of skin.

I keep wanting to go to doctors and have them check or refer me to a neurologist because I feel like if it is something bad, I'm just wasting time...

I'm terrified I will be like this forever.

Thanks for reading...

So yeah...sorry about the long rant. These are how things are going for me right now.
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I do believe you could be suffering symptom's of DP and would strongly recommend bringing DP up with your doctor as it's best to nip these things in the butt. In the meantime I'll recommend you try a few things that help me personally. The big one is "Don't feed into it!" Don't think about it, Don't give DP the light of day. DP is a state of constant anxiety that loves attention, it thrives off it, the less you give it the better, I know first hand how hard it can be at times to do so but just accept it, continue living your life. I also strongly recommend cutting out caffeine and going for walks or any light exercise really. I hope what I've said helps you out and i'm sorry your're feeling this way. All the best.
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