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Can't see a light anymore

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Hello everyone.

As I'm typing this, basically I feel like my body is numb/can't respond to touch properly. I feel cold, but touch and sensations feel very dull and far away.

I cannot feel much emotionally, but it's really the physical symptoms that are pushing me to feeling hopeless. It's been about a week-ish now since it began roughly. I'm not sure if it was just that I was over stressed and my mind couldn't take it anymore or what.

Initially, I had thought somehow smoking cigarettes (I stopped a little after I started feeling these things) somehow ruined my nerves or it was something to do with somehow having a neuropathy of sorts. Since before when trying to sleep I would get pain in my arms, but now everything has been replaced pretty much with a ghostly, depressing numbness.

Clothes feel weird, I can't feel hot and cold sensations properly it seems. I went to 3 separate doctors and all said it was depression/anxiety and gave me Ativan and an anti-depressant.

So...I'm kind of at a huge loss. I'm beginning to give up hope more and more. Waking up every morning to wondering if it will be gone or not. Still checking and I still have it. Jealous of others that are leading seemingly normal lives and can actually "feel" things.

So yeah...I don't know if this "loss" of physical sensation and most touch feelings is DP/DR related or if it is anxiety/Major Depressive Disorder. It feels like it came on so quickly. And like every time I touch my skin, it's like I'm dead and can't feel the top layer of skin.

I keep wanting to go to doctors and have them check or refer me to a neurologist because I feel like if it is something bad, I'm just wasting time...

I'm terrified I will be like this forever.

Thanks for reading...

So yeah...sorry about the long rant. These are how things are going for me right now.
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Hi hun, I have messaged you back. This is one of my worst symptoms and it can be scary, but my best advice is do not feed it by worrying, the less you care the more it goes.

I understand how hard this can be, I'm a year in but I just dont give af what dp does to me anymore. The numbness can get full on, I was in bed a few months ago and my whole body went numb, it was horrible, I would lay in bed crying non stop, have you heard of an epidural? You're given it when you give birth, it makes you numb, thats how it felt for me, but I just kind of stopped paying attention and its got alot better. Honeslty hun you have to learn to past care with it, worry is a feeder xxxxx
Your symptoms are what I had hun. Honestly don't worry, anxiety likes to manifest into all sorts of things. For six months straight I felt like I had a golf ball lodged in my throat, I evem lost 2st because I literally felt like I couldnt swallow, dr kept saying it was anxiety and I was adament it was not, then one day out the blue, it vanished, same with this hun, it just goes one day. My numbness is about 70 percent better since I stopped giving a shit hahah xxx
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