If you read any developmental psychology, you might read that some theorists think that at your age it's not uncommon for a person to be performing a sort of "life assessment" of where he or she is right now and compare it to where he or she wants to be.
I'd say (and of course it's just my layman's view) that what you are experiencing is probably 75% typical for psychological processing of the self and 25% a tendency to reconnect with previous intense obsession when you were feeling sicker.
I just think most of it is nothing to worry about -- normal internal processing of your feelings about your existence.
I've said it before, but I want to say it one more time: the thoughts you got when you were very sick aren't intrinsically different than the thoughts "normals" get every day of their lives. The difference is in the DURATION of those thoughts. For the so-called "DP-er," those thoughts become chronic; for the so-called "normal," those thoughts last maybe 30 seconds and then depart. They just don't stick around. A "normal" becomes conscious of such a thought and says to himself, "What a weird thought." and move on to something more interesting, unflustered and unbothered because he or she knows every human who ever lived has the same kind of interior weirdness.
Remember that we are all made of the same basic design!
I'd say (and of course it's just my layman's view) that what you are experiencing is probably 75% typical for psychological processing of the self and 25% a tendency to reconnect with previous intense obsession when you were feeling sicker.
I just think most of it is nothing to worry about -- normal internal processing of your feelings about your existence.
I've said it before, but I want to say it one more time: the thoughts you got when you were very sick aren't intrinsically different than the thoughts "normals" get every day of their lives. The difference is in the DURATION of those thoughts. For the so-called "DP-er," those thoughts become chronic; for the so-called "normal," those thoughts last maybe 30 seconds and then depart. They just don't stick around. A "normal" becomes conscious of such a thought and says to himself, "What a weird thought." and move on to something more interesting, unflustered and unbothered because he or she knows every human who ever lived has the same kind of interior weirdness.
Remember that we are all made of the same basic design!
