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Of course I know you'll say live your life blah blah as if you you don't have it and blah blah, I've seen and heard it so many times but I just need some relief from this mess. I work everyday, go to school and almost every night my family and I play games so that helps me keep my mind off it but the feeling always persists. My memory is on point so I always get flashbacks about when I was normal. I look at people and think how lucky they are to be normal lol. My vision is fine, so I don't think I have dr.
Current symptoms: zoning out, feeling off balance (almost not grounded within myself), feeling like my body is not here, my mouth feels so weird when I eat (I can eat and taste my food but it feels like it's not my mouth) and the rest of my body feels light. Currently taking an ssri for two months that does nothing for my anxiety, makes me depressed and I wasn't even depressed, so Ive been tapering off. Has anyone tried CBD oil? I'm also taking magnesium and omega 3s.
 

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The more you forget about it and go on with daily life, the more recovered you'll feel. For the first year with DPD, I'd constantly read posts of people saying "just go on with life, distract yourself, etc.." and at the time I thought there was no way in hell I could forget about it. It started out slow, but I slowly over time learned to distract myself, and the feelings would go away for short bursts of time. These short bursts went from minutes to hours, hours to days, days to weeks, and now I'm currently on almost a month of feeling completely normal, despite lingering anxiety, which I can control. It's a long hard process, but it's possible. A few months ago, I was just like you, living my life, doing everything in my power to forget about it. I was hanging out with friends, partying, working, attending school, but I still had that lingering feeling of DPD, and it was the most frustrating thing ever. One day out of nowhere I woke up, went to school, and didnt even notice until about 4 hours in that I wasn't experiencing dpd, and then guess what happened? It came back. I thought about it, and the feelings returned. This was an amazing finding. I was amazed! I wasn't experiencing it, until I thought about it! Ever since then DPD is basically non existent in my life until I put thought into it, which basically only happens when I'm tired. I accept the world as it is, I don't question anything, if I feel DP, I view it as non threatening and it goes away. It's been this way for almost a month, and everyday I'm getting better and better. I have hope in you! Good luck, and I hope you recover soon!
 

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Thanks. I accept and the world too lol and try not to question things. The only questions I always have is how did I get my self in this mess or how did I let it get worse than it was when I first got it which then makes me frustrated but I have to let those go or else it’s gonna be hard to move on. But your story is giving me hope and I’m always hopeful, even on my bad days that I know I will get better.
 

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What SSRI are you on? And how did your DPD start?

Strange that you have symptoms of DP but not DR. I haven't really heard that before. Usually it is DR without DP but not the other way. Have you had any inner ear investigation? The balance thing also sounds strange (look up vertigo)
 

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What SSRI are you on? And how did your DPD start?

Strange that you have symptoms of DP but not DR. I haven't really heard that before. Usually it is DR without DP but not the other way. Have you had any inner ear investigation? The balance thing also sounds strange (look up vertigo)
15mg of mirtazipine. I got it July 2018. At first it started off as slight dr but with researching and anxiety and just imagining the worse, slowly dp came. And then idk somehow along the way it switched. To just dp and no dr. Everything looks fine visually. It's just the feeling of dp lingering... I don't think it's uncommon. I've talked to people personally who recovered and they said the same thing that dp was the last thing they had before they recovered. I just like to keep hope that I'm getting better rather than question the world.. and I do think I have vertigo. But this started a month ago idk why. Whenever I stand up too quick or stretch ????. I haven't had any blood work test done since October so I think I should get it checked in case I have something else happening.
 

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I also have a slight case of tinnitus here and there in my right ear.. it’s not loud, more like a pulse feeling whenever I lay down.. I personally think I have some kind of eustachion tube dysfunction because it always feels like I need to pop my ears as well???????? story my life
 

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Yeh ear issues and tinnitus seem common with dpd. I have tinnitus and crackling ears that pop when I swallow. But I think it might be tension that I have all over.

That's still quite a low dose of mirtazapine isn't it? If it's not helping and it's been six months maybe consider upping the dose? Then maybe change to a more common dpd drug like escitalopram or imipramine (I am trying imipramine now with some good effect)
 

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Yeh ear issues and tinnitus seem common with dpd. I have tinnitus and crackling ears that pop when I swallow. But I think it might be tension that I have all over.

That's still quite a low dose of mirtazapine isn't it? If it's not helping and it's been six months maybe consider upping the dose? Then maybe change to a more common dpd drug like escitalopram or imipramine (I am trying imipramine now with some good effect)
No I meant I have had dr/dp for 6 months.. only been on mirtazipine for two months.. I think I'll just stick it through for a couple of months but if this still doesn't work by another month or so then I'll try that. What are the good effects your feeling?
 

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Oh I see, yeh maybe consider a stronger dose before completely stopping. I wimped out on mirtazapine too early. It helped me sleep amazing at first but when I upped the dose it did the opposite and kept me awake. It also made me too groggy during the day and didn't help my attention issues

Imipramine has helped me greatly with sleep and muscular tension. I think for me these are related to my DPD. It seems to be helping attention and emotions slowly but surely. It has still only been 3 weeks so it is early days.. see no need to stop either as I have been rather fortunate with not having any side effects. Up to 100mg now and am staying on that for the next few months to see how it goes
 

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Oh I see, yeh maybe consider a stronger dose before completely stopping. I wimped out on mirtazapine too early. It helped me sleep amazing at first but when I upped the dose it did the opposite and kept me awake. It also made me too groggy during the day and didn't help my attention issues

Imipramine has helped me greatly with sleep and muscular tension. I think for me these are related to my DPD. It seems to be helping attention and emotions slowly but surely. It has still only been 3 weeks so it is early days.. see no need to stop either as I have been rather fortunate with not having any side effects. Up to 100mg now and am staying on that for the next few months to see how it goes
Okay keep me updated! Also what symptoms do you have?
 

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Of course I know you'll say live your life blah blah as if you you don't have it and blah blah, I've seen and heard it so many times but I just need some relief from this mess. I work everyday, go to school and almost every night my family and I play games so that helps me keep my mind off it but the feeling always persists. My memory is on point so I always get flashbacks about when I was normal. I look at people and think how lucky they are to be normal lol. My vision is fine, so I don't think I have dr.
Current symptoms: zoning out, feeling off balance (almost not grounded within myself), feeling like my body is not here, my mouth feels so weird when I eat (I can eat and taste my food but it feels like it's not my mouth) and the rest of my body feels light. Currently taking an ssri for two months that does nothing for my anxiety, makes me depressed and I wasn't even depressed, so Ive been tapering off. Has anyone tried CBD oil? I'm also taking magnesium and omega 3s.
Yes, I get this too. CBD oil is weird, it helps with some things physically but not really for DP/DR or memory issues. CBD oil will make you feel light but if you are feeling really sick it won't feel too bad but hours later anxiety will be pretty bad. Klonopin is the best thing for my DP/DR at the moment, nothing else has helped.
 

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Yes, I get this too. CBD oil is weird, it helps with some things physically but not really for DP/DR or memory issues. CBD oil will make you feel light but if you are feeling really sick it won't feel too bad but hours later anxiety will be pretty bad. Klonopin is the best thing for my DP/DR at the moment, nothing else has helped.
Isn't dp physical? It should help then lol I've used cbd in the beginning of my DPDR but at the time I just had dr and glad that's working for you! I'm trying to stay away from pharmaceuticals while I taper off my med. I'll look for an alternative supplement similar to Klonopin
 
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