Everything started with just panic attacks (or seizures but EEG showed nothing, but it's hard to understand). I suffered for a long time with that and one day I decided to go to psychiatrist and try some medication. The doctor prescribed me some Xanax and seroxat (I don't know why seroxat cuz I was under 18). By taking Xanax I had no panic attacks at all. But seroxat wasn't helpful at all. I had lots of side effects and since I was okay (Xanax job but family had no clue) my family decided to make me stop these meds in 2 weeks. This means that seroxat (Paroxetine) did nothing to me. Well for a week or more I was okay with anxiety and panic attacks since school started. I was 17 and we started discussing on philosophy about existence and all of these. I don't know why but I started feeling really uncomfortable with these thoughts and scared and panic attacks/dp came back and became chronic. I have to note that I was hooked on computer to forget that hell all the time but I also started forgetting who I am and where I am without even having any sign of stress and panic. Could seroxat cause dp and OCD on me? Now I'm 20, three years later and I went back on another GP. He prescribed me celexa to treat my obsessive thoughts. But what I saw was dp worsening. He said that it's just the first 2 weeks and on 4 weeks I will definitely be okay, but on the 3rd week I felt totally awful. Doc saw my case and told me to change medication. I'm now on fluoxetine. Which is well known for anxiety and treating OCD. He said exactly the same words. Just to wait for 2 weeks and on 4-6 weeks I will feel like myself again, or at least better than I was before. To be honest, I feel really bad and 20 days passed. I'm about to end week 3 and I feel like I've also lost my identity. I totally feel like a robot now and I can't believe I survive and I communicate. It often crosses my mind that I have dementia or Alzheimer's disease. I know it's funny cuz I'm really young and clever and I have good memories. But at least I feel something like brain degeneration. I've seen other people at my country trying several medications and experiencing dp and they all said that after 1-1, 5 or even 2 months I will probably see some results. I can actually go on and see with this med, but I just have that fear that maybe medication is what actually worsens my dp and maybe I will never manage to treat what it does to me. I really need some help and some guidance. Should I try these meds? I can wait for 1-2 months but if I keep getting worse and never can be cured again and whole life nerd after all then I definitely have to stop it. I need someone who has experience with meds to explain me about my situation. I would be really grateful. The reason why I'm also that scared is because there's a post on the internet saying about "permanent" depersonalization and identity loss (I know it can't be permanent exactly but can't be treated since caused by antidepressants that's what he's saying) and I can see people saying that antidepressants caused dp on them and even by stopping meds they never felt better. So I'm really worried of what to do.