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Dear Martin,
I was reading a fascinating tome which compares Sigmund Freud and CS Lewis head to head. It is written by a Harvard psychiatrist. Its such an enriching read, that I may have to buy this one. What struck me in the chapter which compares Sigmund Freud's religious beliefs to CS Lewis's religious beleifs, was that they were both markedly the same until Lewis hit his mid-30's. Both of them were adamant atheists. CS Lewis reminds me of a young Martin:
"When I was an atheist, if anyone asked me, "Why do you not beleive in God?" my reply would run something like this..." First the starkness of the universe : "the greatest part of it consists of empty space completely dark and unimaginably cold...all the forms of life live only by preying upon one another...The creatures cause pain by being born, and live by inflicting pain and in pain they mostly die." Next, in the "most complex creatures. Man, yet another quality appears, which we call reason, whereby he is enabled to foresee his own pain which henceforth is preceded with acute mental suffering, and to foresee his own death while keenly desiring permanence." This human history is a " record of crime, war, disease, and terror with just sufficient happiness interposed to give...an agonized apprehension of losing it." In short, " If you ask me to believe that this is the work of a benevolent and omnipotent spirit, I reply that all the evidence points in the opposite direction."
Because of his pessimistic view of reality, he suffered from an extreme depression most of his early life :
He had a "settled expectation that everything would do what you did not want it to do. Whatever you wanted to remain straight, would bend; whatever you tried to bend would fly back to the straight; all knots which you wished to be firm would come untied; all knots you wanted to untie would remain firm. It is not possible to put it into language without making it comic, and I have indeed no wish to see it now except as something comic. But it is perhaps just these early experiences which are so fugitive and, to an adult, so grotesque, that give the mind its earliest bias, its habitual sense of what is or is not plausible. "
Lewis realized that through his atheism, he was in reality expressing his own frustration and anger:
"I was at the time living, like so many Atheists...in a whirl of contradictions. I maintained God did not exist. I was also angry with God for not existing. I was equally angry with Him for creating a world."
After his conversion, the lifting of his depression he attributed to several things. I find most interesting his change of view of people. He no longer considered them temporary aquaintances - since all were given immortal souls, the people he passed by and chatted with on a daily basis were immortals, and not to be snubbed or thought less of.
"There are no ordinary people, " Lewis remarked at an address given at Oxford. He encouraged the audience" to remember that the dullest and most uninteresting person you talk to may one day be a creature which if you saw it now, you would be strongly tempted to worship." No one ever talks to " a mere mortal...it is immortals whom we joke with, work with, marry, snub, and exploit - immortal horrors or everlasting splendors...your neighbor is the holiest object presented to your senses."
And before his conversion, he often thought the greatest moments of his life would be acheived by doing something great. In this passage, it reminds me of the daydreams of people with DP, who are also of a philosophical ilk :
"Dreams of success, fame, love, and the like....I have had dozens of them...dreams in which I said clever things...fought battles, and generally forced the world to acknowledge what a remarkable person I was."
But he realized that these acheivements became emptier the more were won.
" A proud man is always looking down on things and on people: and of course, as long as you are lookin down, you can no see something above you."
"Pleasure in being praised is not pride. The child who is patted on the back for doing a lesson well, the woman whose beauty is praised by her lover, the saved soul to whom Christ says "Well done", are pleased and ought to be. For here the pleasure lies not in what you are but in the fact that you have pleased someone you wanted, and rightly wanted to please. The more you delight in yourself and the less you delight in the praise, the worse you are becoming. When you delight wholly in yourself and do not care about the praise at all, you have reached bottom. "
I thought that some of these quotes were spot on for my life, and for some people on here. I hope they enlighten you as much as they have me, and I hope you all have a great Sunday. God Bless, and
Peace
Homeskooled[/i]
I was reading a fascinating tome which compares Sigmund Freud and CS Lewis head to head. It is written by a Harvard psychiatrist. Its such an enriching read, that I may have to buy this one. What struck me in the chapter which compares Sigmund Freud's religious beliefs to CS Lewis's religious beleifs, was that they were both markedly the same until Lewis hit his mid-30's. Both of them were adamant atheists. CS Lewis reminds me of a young Martin:
"When I was an atheist, if anyone asked me, "Why do you not beleive in God?" my reply would run something like this..." First the starkness of the universe : "the greatest part of it consists of empty space completely dark and unimaginably cold...all the forms of life live only by preying upon one another...The creatures cause pain by being born, and live by inflicting pain and in pain they mostly die." Next, in the "most complex creatures. Man, yet another quality appears, which we call reason, whereby he is enabled to foresee his own pain which henceforth is preceded with acute mental suffering, and to foresee his own death while keenly desiring permanence." This human history is a " record of crime, war, disease, and terror with just sufficient happiness interposed to give...an agonized apprehension of losing it." In short, " If you ask me to believe that this is the work of a benevolent and omnipotent spirit, I reply that all the evidence points in the opposite direction."
Because of his pessimistic view of reality, he suffered from an extreme depression most of his early life :
He had a "settled expectation that everything would do what you did not want it to do. Whatever you wanted to remain straight, would bend; whatever you tried to bend would fly back to the straight; all knots which you wished to be firm would come untied; all knots you wanted to untie would remain firm. It is not possible to put it into language without making it comic, and I have indeed no wish to see it now except as something comic. But it is perhaps just these early experiences which are so fugitive and, to an adult, so grotesque, that give the mind its earliest bias, its habitual sense of what is or is not plausible. "
Lewis realized that through his atheism, he was in reality expressing his own frustration and anger:
"I was at the time living, like so many Atheists...in a whirl of contradictions. I maintained God did not exist. I was also angry with God for not existing. I was equally angry with Him for creating a world."
After his conversion, the lifting of his depression he attributed to several things. I find most interesting his change of view of people. He no longer considered them temporary aquaintances - since all were given immortal souls, the people he passed by and chatted with on a daily basis were immortals, and not to be snubbed or thought less of.
"There are no ordinary people, " Lewis remarked at an address given at Oxford. He encouraged the audience" to remember that the dullest and most uninteresting person you talk to may one day be a creature which if you saw it now, you would be strongly tempted to worship." No one ever talks to " a mere mortal...it is immortals whom we joke with, work with, marry, snub, and exploit - immortal horrors or everlasting splendors...your neighbor is the holiest object presented to your senses."
And before his conversion, he often thought the greatest moments of his life would be acheived by doing something great. In this passage, it reminds me of the daydreams of people with DP, who are also of a philosophical ilk :
"Dreams of success, fame, love, and the like....I have had dozens of them...dreams in which I said clever things...fought battles, and generally forced the world to acknowledge what a remarkable person I was."
But he realized that these acheivements became emptier the more were won.
" A proud man is always looking down on things and on people: and of course, as long as you are lookin down, you can no see something above you."
"Pleasure in being praised is not pride. The child who is patted on the back for doing a lesson well, the woman whose beauty is praised by her lover, the saved soul to whom Christ says "Well done", are pleased and ought to be. For here the pleasure lies not in what you are but in the fact that you have pleased someone you wanted, and rightly wanted to please. The more you delight in yourself and the less you delight in the praise, the worse you are becoming. When you delight wholly in yourself and do not care about the praise at all, you have reached bottom. "
I thought that some of these quotes were spot on for my life, and for some people on here. I hope they enlighten you as much as they have me, and I hope you all have a great Sunday. God Bless, and
Peace
Homeskooled[/i]