Ugh, I hate this..why do i do this to myself? I'm so trapped in patterns that bring me into dp and obsessive states, and I don't avoid them. For example, the other night when I started obsessing on my breathing, I had a few beers. So tongiht, I drink a few beers and think "i'm going to start obsessing on my breathing now," and, tada, now i'm obsessing about it agian. I think that i'm giong to do something or feel someway, and I do it or feel it. And mostly they are negative things. Sigh. Why do I do this to myself? Am I so comfortable in my neuroses and obsessions and dp/dr that I force it onto myself, even when it causes me great distress.