Today I have had my final therapy session, and I have had somewhat of an epiphany, a sudden realisation that this is only a perception of life due to my conscious hiding away the shit I have gone through. this past month has been the best month, I've been to gigs, been out with friends , my friends getting engaged etc. its been incredible and its lightened up my world. I have learnt to not lock myself away and hide and drown myself in depression,anxiety, self pity and jealousy. Instead I have gone out and experienced life and my depersonalisation has become a shrivelled aspect of my self, a fragment, a projection of my pessimistic self. If anyone is reading this, I seriously urge you to go out and slowly build up your confidence and overwhelm this monster called depersonalisation, put yourself in public spaces and slowly expose yourself to it, and you'll soon learn that it wont harm or kill you, don't let it control you, no mater how shit you feel, just let it wash over you and experience, even though in that state it is hard, it took me one month to come to the point where I am can now feel emotions and feel a little like myself again.
but yeah in conclusion for me slowly exposing myself to different situations that my Depersonalisation may not like, I slowly learnt that it cant do more than frighten me, it shouldn't get in the way of what I enjoy, I have put myself in these situations and now I am at the point where I can feel emotion a lot clearer and things are looking up.
Jose Gonzalez : step out. although cheesy it still gives a little motivation
thats fantastic. ive started to do that in the last few days also. and although i am feeling extremely confused i have to trust that this is the only way out. What else can i do but wallow in the confusion. We were normal before and we should be normal again.
I guess u have to make friends with the confusion or fear to then be able to desensitize to it. Was ur dp very severe as mine is? i have to trust that myself and things will make sense again once it goes. its the fear or never getting normalcy back that causes the pain for me.
Yeah for me it was obsessive thoughts of my own reality, feeling like I don't exist, loss of emotion, feeling detached from reality and from myself all that kinda nonsense. I also feared not going back to normal, sadly for me it lingers when I'm at my best, merely lingers, just learning to live with it and experience life has made myself feel better, DP has also been a lesson to myself, to appreciate everything around me as I live, the fact remains that we are alive, nothing changes that apart from death. learning to live with DP is probably the best thing next to being cured, it's hard but you'll get through it
it's a lot of pain, but to endure that pain with a smile makes a difference in your experience
Yeah for me it was obsessive thoughts of my own reality, feeling like I don't exist, loss of emotion, feeling detached from reality and from myself all that kinda nonsense. I also feared not going back to normal, sadly for me it lingers when I'm at my best, merely lingers, just learning to live with it and experience life has made myself feel better, DP has also been a lesson to myself, to appreciate everything around me as I live, the fact remains that we are alive, nothing changes that apart from death. learning to live with DP is probably the best thing next to being cured, it's hard but you'll get through it
it's a lot of pain, but to endure that pain with a smile makes a difference in your experience
DO u remember when your dp onset ? the feeling of unreality was so intense. The thoughts u started to have were based on that feeling so if u ignore it the dp is still there. Thats just placebo affect there was something that triggered you to dissoactive maybe a experience in your life that was traumatic or hurt your sense of self? For me it was that, dig deep into your life something triggered this the feeling of dp wont go away youll just adapt to it. the only way to make the feeling go away and to get back to your normal self is to become aware of that problem and address it and solve it and talk about it.trust me. and goodluck
DO u remember when your dp onset ? the feeling of unreality was so intense. The thoughts u started to have were based on that feeling so if u ignore it the dp is still there. Thats just placebo affect there was something that triggered you to dissoactive maybe a experience in your life that was traumatic or hurt your sense of self? For me it was that, dig deep into your life something triggered this the feeling of dp wont go away youll just adapt to it. the only way to make the feeling go away and to get back to your normal self is to become aware of that problem and address it and solve it and talk about it.trust me. and goodluck
Mine DP has always been due to over thinking and the constant depression for 5 years of my life, first happened when I had constant thoughts of killing myself, my mind just numbed and i felt unreal which caused me to get intense questioning thoughts of "is this reality? am I real, what is real?" stuff like that, which scared the crap out of me. for me I know my problem, but I'm quite obsessive when it comes to intriguing thoughts like my own reality. the first time I got over me DP was when I met someone who came into my life and gave me more happiness than anybody has in years. currently this is the second DP phase I've had because I am lonely, feel like no one cares about me, so my mind did the same. but recently I have been going out more with friends and being able to feel the joys of life again, it then disappears temporarily until night, where my brains more active. & thank-you & good luck to you to
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