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So I've had brain fog for literally as far back as I can remember (like from the age of 2-3 I think) but I never realized until very recently, since it's my norm. I thought everyone was like this. My symptoms include having very tired eyes (my eyes feel tired even if I got enough sleep), visual snow/static, afterimages, not great concentration, weird feelings that don't make sense, feeling like I don't have a "self" with consistent personality traits/ideals, constant thinking that I can't switch off ever, slow thinking when i do need to think (say in social situations, or doing school work) and most notably, a deficit in social skills. I can't feel proper empathy with this brain fog usually, and I have no social intuition, which makes me incredibly awkward usually. It's a pain. For whatever reason I do have the ability to cringe at my social mistakes. I also don't love anyone in the traditional sense, not even my parents, though I have a great relationship with them. It's just 100% of the time my brain is fogged up and anything I feel isn't "normal"; I do have feelings, but they are nothing like "normal" emotions, are fleeting, and make no sense.
However while this is my state literally 99% of the time, every so often I'll get really absorbed in some TV show and focus so intently on it in that moment, my mind will clear and I'll be completely focussed on how that person is feeling, empathising with them to the point of pain sometimes. After that, my mind usually feels very very calm, and I can feel "normal" emotions like love towards other people (which I don't usually because of the fog), and my mind quietens, which is weird. When my brain is fogged, I'm thinking literally all the time, non stop. When my mind clears, I know myself. This also happens occasionally when I've been talking to someone in real life for a very long time and I guess I inadvertently focus on the person and their feelings. Something clicks in my brain and I feel like a "normal" person.
It's frustrating that the only thing that seems to clear the brain fog is something based on luck, rather than a supplement or something that I can take and then feel fine forever after for. The fog also doesn't clear every single time I talk to someone or watch a TV show, it's more a matter of luck - whether I really get drawn into the TV show or conversation or not. It only stays clear for a little while after it too, in a couple hours, especially if I'm thinking a lot, the brain fog comes back.
Therefore I was wondering if anyone might have an idea of how to treat this weird brain fog more permanently? Any ideas would be appreciated!
However while this is my state literally 99% of the time, every so often I'll get really absorbed in some TV show and focus so intently on it in that moment, my mind will clear and I'll be completely focussed on how that person is feeling, empathising with them to the point of pain sometimes. After that, my mind usually feels very very calm, and I can feel "normal" emotions like love towards other people (which I don't usually because of the fog), and my mind quietens, which is weird. When my brain is fogged, I'm thinking literally all the time, non stop. When my mind clears, I know myself. This also happens occasionally when I've been talking to someone in real life for a very long time and I guess I inadvertently focus on the person and their feelings. Something clicks in my brain and I feel like a "normal" person.
It's frustrating that the only thing that seems to clear the brain fog is something based on luck, rather than a supplement or something that I can take and then feel fine forever after for. The fog also doesn't clear every single time I talk to someone or watch a TV show, it's more a matter of luck - whether I really get drawn into the TV show or conversation or not. It only stays clear for a little while after it too, in a couple hours, especially if I'm thinking a lot, the brain fog comes back.
Therefore I was wondering if anyone might have an idea of how to treat this weird brain fog more permanently? Any ideas would be appreciated!
