[fg1222]

Hey,

So I'm new to this site and I've had depersonalization for about 6 or 7 months. I took a trip to Peru and when I came back, it gradually gained strength for two months, from occasional feelings of not really being there, which I'm used to to some extent, and by the end of the second month I felt like I was in a dream that I couldn't get out of. I've explained it to so many people who don't understand it now that I'm just tired of explaining how it felt. I'm a college student, so I went back to college and it was pretty unbearable for those months, but now I'm back home for summer and am feeling a lot better. Probably because I'm not as anxious about stuff.

But I just wanted to ask about some of the symptoms that are still sort of there. First of all, my vision has become pretty horrible. I do wear glasses, but before I would only need them for driving or for sitting in the back of classrooms, but since the dp started I need them constantly. Is blurrier vision due to the depersonalization, or have my eyes just gotten worse? I also seem to have a high number of floaters in my eyes, does that have anything to do with dp?

Second, along with the dp I was having ear problems due to getting drunk the night before a 5am flight to Cusco (which is a horrible elevation for those used to sea level) which I slept through the whole thing. I had fluid in my ear and swollen eustachian tubes and sinuses. It went down, and I never had any pain in my ear, but I still hear popping in my ears everytime I swallow and my ears feel full. The ENT also says I might have TMJ due to clenching my jaw. Does anyone else have anything like this? I'm wondering whether this is due to the end of the etd, the dp or the tmj.

Third, my dp gets worse with exercise. Everyone seems to say exercise helps dp, and people also keep telling me to exercise b/c it will help my anxiety, but whenever I try to run my dp and my anxiety just gets a lot worse. I was wondering if anyone else has experienced this.

But anyway those are my main questions. I just feel depressed and like I have no motivation right now, but I feel times better than I did a few months ago. The fact that I'm posting on this website is proof of that, before the idea that I could communicate with people through the computer would just totally throw me for a loop. But I was wondering if anyone had any answers to these lingering questions.
--fg

 

[eddy1886]

Excercise never did anything for my DP..in fact like you said it actually made it worse because when exercising i would go deeper inside my own head and think more which just created more anxiety..I can also identify totally with the vision thing and the floaters..I also clench my jaw when tense

 

[fg1222]

The other thing I feel like is that it is harder to be outside than inside. When indoors I'll feel like wow I'm getting better but as soon as I step outside its like a screen has been put up between my eyes and the world and stuff that is far away begins to look cardboard

 

[AMUNT]

for me i think DP/DR created anxiety and not the other way around but im not sure.. i didnt feel depressed or anxtious a single day before the day my vision decided to go dissconnected in a brainfog haze...

 

[arty]

Not just you! My vision has gone a lot worse and I also have a lot more floaters in my vision. Exercise also doesn't seem to help a great deal. But I think in regards to exercise, you don't do it rid you of DP/DR, you do it to distract yourself from the symptoms of DP/DR. So when I used to exercise and not feel better this would make me more anxious, but when I came to terms with the fact that exercise wasn't an instant cure it allowed me to be more relaxed about my exercise and the anxiety is non-existent now. I can also relate to your comments about feeling OK indoors but then going outside and feeling worse. I think this is because indoors there's only so much to look at, whereas outside there is just endless stimuli for your brain to deal with.

 

[gemesders123]

This post is exactly how I'm feeling !!! My vision is terrible and I also get floaters in my eyes, I went to opticians and they did say that I need glasses but only for reading and whilst I'm at work, but I hate wearing them.....

I've not really done much exercise since I got this thing but going to try going back to the gym and working out more just to distract myself.

I also feel worse outside than inside at home I feel like yes I feel better as soon as I go outside it just gets 1000 times worse.... Also brightness makes it worse as well....