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STOP. Do not do that.
There is ALWAYS hope my friend. Everybody on here is struggling. I know u think what u’re going thru is different and more severe then others but i can guarantee u that there is a way out. There are options.
All this fucking thing is is anxiety. Nothing more. The moment u learn to stop it it will subside.
i know u can.
Youre at ure lowest now. It will and can be better. I promise.
There is ALWAYS hope my friend. Everybody on here is struggling. I know u think what u’re going thru is different and more severe then others but i can guarantee u that there is a way out. There are options.
All this fucking thing is is anxiety. Nothing more. The moment u learn to stop it it will subside.
i know u can.
Youre at ure lowest now. It will and can be better. I promise.
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As someone who is in your position pretty much daily, I can tell you only you can decide whether you wish to take your own life or not. I'll spare you the "it gets better!" or the "it'll stop once you ___" bullshit. No one on this forum knows what the cure will be for you, and no one knows when this will go away for you. It may be tomorrow, it may be a year from now. And besides, right now, you're still in fucking pain. I won't tell you to think about the people who love you and how this would affect them, because I know you do, everyday, just like everybody else. Even though I wish everyone suffering with this insidious disease would stay, to tell anyone in our position what to do with their lives feels selfish to me. With that being said, if you do decide you want to stay, and can hold on for the next 5 seconds, and the next 5 seconds after that, maybe you can keep holding on for another 5 seconds until the pain becomes more manageable again. That's what I do when I feel like I am at a threshold of suffering which I believe has become to much for me to bear. I just keep going for another 5 seconds. And shortly after that seconds become minutes, and minutes become days, and slowly I find myself getting to a point where I can at least feel like I've crawled ever so slightly away from the edge. With each passing day winning this little battle of mine of life and death comes another day closer to relief. I don't know when that day will come, or which direction the way out will be, but I do know that this experience hasn't been the entirety of my life. I still remember those days where the fog didn't exist, some not too long ago. My therapist says we are all only temporarily sane. I like the way that sounds. I may not know when, but I know another day where I can breathe again is waiting for me in the future, if I can just keep going for 5 more seconds. Maybe, if you want, you can do the same. I am here if you want to talk, scream, or say whatever the fuck it is you feel like saying to someone right now. By the way, if you've made it to the bottom of this long ass paragraph, that means you've already made it an entire 2 minutes 
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As someone who is in your position pretty much daily, I can tell you only you can decide whether you wish to take your own life or not. I'll spare you the "it gets better!" or the "it'll stop once you ___" bullshit. No one on this forum knows what the cure will be for you, and no one knows when this will go away for you. It may be tomorrow, it may be a year from now. And besides, right now, you're still in fucking pain. I won't tell you to think about the people who love you and how this would affect them, because I know you do, everyday, just like everybody else. Even though I wish everyone suffering with this insidious disease would stay, to tell anyone in our position what to do with their lives feels selfish to me. With that being said, if you do decide you want to stay, and can hold on for the next 5 seconds, and the next 5 seconds after that, maybe you can keep holding on for another 5 seconds until the pain becomes more manageable again. That's what I do when I feel like I am at a threshold of suffering which I believe has become to much for me to bear. I just keep going for the another 5 seconds. And shortly after that seconds become minutes, and minutes become days, and slowly I find myself getting to a point where I can at least feel like I've crawled ever so slightly away from the edge. With each passing day winning this little battle of mine of life and death comes another day closer to relief. I don't know when that day will come, or which direction the way out will be, but I do know that this experience hasn't been the entirety of my life. I still remember those days where the fog didn't exist, some not too long ago. My therapist says we are all only temporarily sane. I like the way that sounds. I may not know when, but I know another day where I can breathe again is waiting for me in the future, if I can just keep going for 5 more seconds. Maybe, if you want, you can do the same. I am here if you want to talk, scream, or say whatever the fuck it is you feel like saying to someone right now. By the way, if you've made it to the bottom of this long ass paragraph, that means you've already made it an entire 2 minutes
this speaks volumes. thank you.
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what drugs are you on? I fight every second of everyday -- I think it's normal to feel overwhelmed... walking around like you're on acid and floating is not a walk in the park. fuck you
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just another guy who thinks im responsible for your mental wellbeing.
just simple maths:
if you take your life, you take the hypothetical opportunity to get better away. if not you have the hypothetical chance, even if its only 20%, to get better.
seriously do you think im your father who has to take care of you? i just let here a quote, you should think about. not more not less.
edit: i struggle for more than 10 years with mental health. dp/dr, anxiety, depression, ocd, panic attacks. i never said its a walk in the park. there are people who recover after 40 years. do you think they just did have a walk in the park? fucking coward. take responsibility asshole
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you know what man, I apologise. I am dick today and you're just trying to be nice and supportive but when you're suffering just so much and you get a quote thrown at you it kinda seems like you're taking the piss.
have a good day/night lemi
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Hey, listen.
This forum used to be a lot more active. There were some really close friends of mine who took their lives. We have a list of those who have passed away in the Moderator Section. I've had dissociation for over 18.5 years now. I love my life, I've put in blood sweat and tears. If anyone without this knew what we've gone through, then they'd treat us as heroes and heroines. I say soldier on through. Your blessing is coming.
This forum used to be a lot more active. There were some really close friends of mine who took their lives. We have a list of those who have passed away in the Moderator Section. I've had dissociation for over 18.5 years now. I love my life, I've put in blood sweat and tears. If anyone without this knew what we've gone through, then they'd treat us as heroes and heroines. I say soldier on through. Your blessing is coming.
I'm really happy to read this, and I am happy you are still with us!
We don't know each other, but seriously if you feel bad like that, I am PMable and available to talk over the phone or anything. I have zero therapy- or advice giving skills, but if you want to speak with anyone who might understand at least part of what you are going through I am available, for you or anyone else who goes through the same.
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