Well of the two biggies of mental illness Ie scitzophenia and Bi Polar i seem to match a lot of symtons for the bi-polar and few on the scitzophenia so I am not sure I have bi-polar (havent been diagnosed) but its looking like I having some kind of manic disorder of some type, like for example I match all these criteria
mania sympons ( i am going through what I beleive is a manic kind of episode now, I feel like the man, everything feels right, ive been awake for all night since christmas eve and prior to getting back home i was having serious thoughts about killing myself, now i feel on top of the world and full of energy)
Increased physical and mental activity and energy yes, oohh i want to write a book, i want to script a film bla bla bla etc etc
Heightened mood, exaggerated optimism and self-confidence yes
Excessive irritability, aggressive behavior yes (already had an argument with my mum today)
Decreased need for sleep without experiencing fatigue yes - haven't slept all night and I feel fine
Grandiose delusions, inflated sense of self-importance - yep recently been thinking about how im going to change the world and become like the best rock star ever, despite the fat i cant play music for shit)
Racing speech, racing thoughts, flight of ideas - yep sometimes speech seems to flow in a very natrual fashion, and i feel confident about what im saying self assured
Impulsiveness, poor judgment, distractibility - yes ,yes don't think about doing things consuqeunces etc etc,no
Reckless behavior - sometimes yes
In the most severe cases, delusions and hallucinations - yes for delusions mild panoia , no for hallucantions
Depression
Prolonged sadness or unexplained crying spells - yes for sadness feeling of voidness , no for crying,I can't cry
Significant changes in appetite and sleep patterns - no for appetite , yes for sleep patterns , these are always changing
Irritability, anger, worry, agitation, anxiety - big fat yes, i worry about everything, and also that things are my fault
Pessimism, indifference - yes , often feeligns of whats the point, recureent suicidal thoughts
Loss of energy, persistent lethargy - yes for sure, i felt so letharic a few days ago when my relatives came round to stay i didn't want to see them, satyed in my room and listened to kraftwerk man-machine album
Feelings of guilt, worthlessness - oh yess though ive preety much decided guilt is a stupid worthless emotion, i still feel it
Inability to concentrate, indecisiveness - yes, i cant concentrate on crap when im low
Inability to take pleasure in former interests, social withdrawal - iv'e spent the last 5 days in my room, with no desire to go out, preety much layed in bed all day
Unexplained aches and pains - back pains
Recurring thoughts of death or suicide - yep defeialty, more so than a long long time, like i have been constantly thinking about getting some knives from downstairs and slittign my wrists actually was preety close to doing it today when i was preety drunk, but when drunkenesss wore off i saw sense, still constant thoughts of suicide when low, at the moment i couldn't care less about suicide though , i feel happy!
Sorry if anyone finds this post depressing or whatever, but I seriously think that the bi-ploar may be the source of my dp/dr as well as all the other crap thats going on with me, as I am preety sure I don't have scitzophenia.
mania sympons ( i am going through what I beleive is a manic kind of episode now, I feel like the man, everything feels right, ive been awake for all night since christmas eve and prior to getting back home i was having serious thoughts about killing myself, now i feel on top of the world and full of energy)
Increased physical and mental activity and energy yes, oohh i want to write a book, i want to script a film bla bla bla etc etc
Heightened mood, exaggerated optimism and self-confidence yes
Excessive irritability, aggressive behavior yes (already had an argument with my mum today)
Decreased need for sleep without experiencing fatigue yes - haven't slept all night and I feel fine
Grandiose delusions, inflated sense of self-importance - yep recently been thinking about how im going to change the world and become like the best rock star ever, despite the fat i cant play music for shit)
Racing speech, racing thoughts, flight of ideas - yep sometimes speech seems to flow in a very natrual fashion, and i feel confident about what im saying self assured
Impulsiveness, poor judgment, distractibility - yes ,yes don't think about doing things consuqeunces etc etc,no
Reckless behavior - sometimes yes
In the most severe cases, delusions and hallucinations - yes for delusions mild panoia , no for hallucantions
Depression
Prolonged sadness or unexplained crying spells - yes for sadness feeling of voidness , no for crying,I can't cry
Significant changes in appetite and sleep patterns - no for appetite , yes for sleep patterns , these are always changing
Irritability, anger, worry, agitation, anxiety - big fat yes, i worry about everything, and also that things are my fault
Pessimism, indifference - yes , often feeligns of whats the point, recureent suicidal thoughts
Loss of energy, persistent lethargy - yes for sure, i felt so letharic a few days ago when my relatives came round to stay i didn't want to see them, satyed in my room and listened to kraftwerk man-machine album
Feelings of guilt, worthlessness - oh yess though ive preety much decided guilt is a stupid worthless emotion, i still feel it
Inability to concentrate, indecisiveness - yes, i cant concentrate on crap when im low
Inability to take pleasure in former interests, social withdrawal - iv'e spent the last 5 days in my room, with no desire to go out, preety much layed in bed all day
Unexplained aches and pains - back pains
Recurring thoughts of death or suicide - yep defeialty, more so than a long long time, like i have been constantly thinking about getting some knives from downstairs and slittign my wrists actually was preety close to doing it today when i was preety drunk, but when drunkenesss wore off i saw sense, still constant thoughts of suicide when low, at the moment i couldn't care less about suicide though , i feel happy!
Sorry if anyone finds this post depressing or whatever, but I seriously think that the bi-ploar may be the source of my dp/dr as well as all the other crap thats going on with me, as I am preety sure I don't have scitzophenia.
