being active

hi, I'm just looking for motivation. As it is, I'm not interested in anything anymore, therefore I mainly live inside my head, i.e sleep and check in at a couple of discussion forums. I know this cannot be good for me but can somebody say they're doing better when they keep active, since I don't feel a difference...but I'm probably just too impatient. There's so much things I could do, it all just seems so pointless...I need meaning. And I don't mean to whine! Just thinking aloud. I do believe most of us will be cured.