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today has been a very bad day. I've been cring on and off all day at how tragically beautiful, and just how tragic and sad and lonley everything is, all the selfpitying dirt that i seem to be pathetically wallowing in at the moment.
There are moments when i think i am actually going insane. I do things and dont realise then i speak outloud the loud noise of my subconcious voice.
I thought i'd managed to stop the anxiety but i had a panic attack in my piano lesson, but i got through it, even though i couldnt play any notes and i thought that my teacher must have thought i was on drugs.

I'm wondering about the issues that are keeping the dp inplace, the reason that my brain has decided i need to have a defence mechanism. I know two of them, neither can be fixed, and i actually dont no how to even start to begin to get over them. I know therapy sounds like a good idea, but i can't afford it, and i guess even if i could i'd be scared of admitting things to people for fear of embarrasment.
I've run out of ideas and all today i just keep weeping, i keep living my life, i am very social and i keep myself out there, but it jsut feels like i'm watching a movie (like you all know)...

I just don't know what to do anymore. Is there anyway you can do self therapy?

thank you.
 

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The first part of this reminds me of J.D. Salinger..
Anyway, I'm in the same position. I've been considering meditation or relaxation tapes or something of the sort to get me through this... or.. our of this .. yea
Good luck.
 

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if you have insufficient monies to seek therapy...try meditation.

it doesnt cost anything. you dont need a prescription.
its painless. you dont have to leave your room.

dont be afraid of religious overtones, either. youre not praying, worshipping, or bowing to any god or gods.
 

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if you dont have a lot of $$$,

The Miracle of Mindfulness by Thich Nhat Hanh is 7 dollars well spent.

short, easy to understand, powerful guide to mediation and mindfulness.

meditation = how bring your mind under your own control. (not dp's)

mindfulness = how to stay "in the moment" (get out of your head)

enough rambling

God Speed!
Blake
 

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Maybe you would get a lot out of writing a journal and thinking about it as therapy, which it is! You write exactly what you would say to a therapist. Most of therapy is actually the process of talking about our feelings. There is usually very little input from the therapist. The talking itself is the therapy and the writing itself can be the therapy, because these actions allow you to express (one in speech and one in writing) your inner thoughts and feelings. That's the bottom line of what therapy is -- a milieu in which you freely express everything that's on your mind, everything that you want to say. From doing that activity, you will experience connections between things and feelings and have insights and develop more understanding into yourself.

So for a therapy substitute, journaling is good one. What a therapist adds to the equation is a live, trained mind that may suggest patterns or things that seem to fit together and may mean something to you. A therapist may hear two things that suggest a third thing and then ask you if that third thing had any relevance in your opinion. You could do that for yourself to a degree, but it's better to have a person who's trained in it.

Look at it this way: if you start journaling now, down the road you may be able to find a therapist who will have a sliding scale that allows you to afford his or her services, and you will already have much of what you want to say on paper. You could then either use it to present your situation at your first meeting or not, depending on how you feel at the moment.

I definitely would try it for a week or two and see how you like it. Perhaps make a twice a week appointment with your journal for 50 minutes. If you do, I'd be very interested in hearing how it works out for you.
 

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i agree write a journal as you seem to forget each good day when you have dp/dr but when you do keep a journal you can look back and say oh hang on yes i did have a good day then things arnt always so bleak!!!

ive decided to keep a journal on here i hope nobody minds but i would appreciate any input or similar experiances

i feel this is better then any meds a doc can prescribe to be honest as we learn about our ways our selfs along the journy :D
 
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