I went many years with lots of diagnoses, with anxiety being the most common. But the docs would always say "yes anxiety, but there seems something more." It really confused me, for yes i knew I had anxiety issues, but I also was experiencing many things that other anxiety folks were not. I attended a group sessions for panic attack/agpraphobics, I hung out with a support group for the same and I talked at lenth over the years with my siblings who also had huge anxiety issues (ocd etc). I could relate well to the anxiety and panic in all these folks, but they could not (except episodic) relate to my descriptions of dp/dr. Furthurmore, all the treatments that helped these people (meds, exposure, cognitive thereapy, biofeedback, relaxation techniques etc) did little for me. So I felt truly alone and depressed over this. Finally In 1984 I stumbled upon Claire Weeks book and it was there that I found two pages talking about dp/dr. It was so obvious to me what I was experiencing. I then researched med libraries (no internet...I had to travel far and wide to the city to use resources) and read journals and started to understand more. It was with excitement that I reentered therapy becasue now I had a word for it, but to my disappointment the docs did not know anything about it. So I went a few more years until finding hppdonline and this site a couple years ago and for the first time in my life related to another human being with similiar symtpoms. It took me thirty years to get to this point. Before this I jsut went along in life trying to manage in my ignorance. I am very grateful for this site.
JC don't you feel as though posts like this are going backwards. You have been a member here longer than I have. Im not trying to ridecule ( sp?) your post. But topics like these are ones people make when they first come to the website. You just gotta learn to accept this horrible misery filled existance, make the best of it, and hope one day you will feel better.
no i dont feel as though im going backwards,i understand what you are saying and i take no offence but somedays i dont visit here at all and other days i feel like saying a few words...its a bit like sometimes when you post you are very kind and then other times you are very caustic,you see we all act different on different days.
alot on here are recoverd but it still feels like a nice place to visit,ive infact met many friends on this website and i will remain posting ,if people dont like my posts or find them boring then theres no need to open them...a problem shared is a problem halfed
No medical professional, even up to this date, has ever mentioned the word 'Depersonalisation', except once - I think, under his breath, in passing, and in relation to anxiety.
I first learnt about DP after trawling through a million and one psychology books when I was at university. Apart from convincing me that I was developing Schizophrenia, I found a one paragraph piece on the symptoms of Depression/Anxiety, namely DP. And that was it.
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