I got out of this last time by getting on paxil and dealing with my depression and anxiety. This time I am pregnant and ended up having to get back on paxil same dose and I’m still or more depressed than I was before taking it. It worked miracles for me last time. After two weeks I was out of bed and starting having faith and getting back into the world slowly. This time it’s been 3 weeks and I’m still in bed maybe feeling worse. All Iv ever wanted was a baby and I’m now 24 weeks pregnant and I don’t care. I don’t care about anyone or anything. I want to live my amazing life I had before this and I don’t want to die but at this point I don’t feel I have another choice ( after baby is born ). I either need to be better by the time the baby comes or it’s game over for me. I can’t live like this ( derealization and depression ) anymore. It’s my third time and it’s worse than before. Medication was my hope and cure last time and it’s not doing a thing this time. I don’t want to keep jumping meds while pregnant or because of side effects or the time it takes to see if it works or not then having to get off and back on. I don’t have that kind of time anymore.