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ok j/k (and no I'm not on ecstacy at the moment!)
But I was going through the member list and realized that this site that (in my mind) was originally supposed to be the pit stop before making a fantastic and thrilling recovery from DP, turned out instead to be a place where over the past few years I have made some good friends. It was almost like I was having an imaginary conversation in my mind with a local friend, if they were looking over my shoulder i'd be going through the list being like "yep, they're cool...known them for a while.." etc.
I haven't found the end all know all but I've experienced some Life.
it's just cool.
I mean even if this whole things sucks in ways (hey! it does get better!), i never realized I would make actual friends on here, ones that I know and trust in a far different and somewhat deeper way than most of my Tulsa friends. We're going through something that WE all can sympathize with each other over. And I think that's one of the main things we really need, sometimes...
I was making my way home tonight. After stopping by the bar (to say hi to people!), I was wanting to maybe see a friend afterwords...so I called one friend up, and he wasn't there, so then I contemplated calling another friend. And well, it was late, but I decided to call anyway...maybe they would want to hang out.
I called and they were there and we talked for a bit and I realized I just needed to talk to someone a bit, I lost the desire to hang out for the night and came home. Interesting stuff.
But sometimes we're so caught up in finding the elusive magical cure that we find it hard to appreciate each other on here. At least I feel that way. It's hard to WANT to like the people on here because you don't want that DP thing to be a part of your life and your being. But at least look at it this way: You'll never hear about someone's webcam on this site!
Anyway I just think y'all are cool and it's kind of neat that I've known you guys for this long.
Oh and I'm doing relatively ok so don't think when I post "years" that means I'm still going through the worst of it. It's way better in an interesting way...a couple years ago I was trying to grasp the concepts of why it should be better, but now i'm realizing some more things and my life is DEFINITELY richer...
ok bye.
But I was going through the member list and realized that this site that (in my mind) was originally supposed to be the pit stop before making a fantastic and thrilling recovery from DP, turned out instead to be a place where over the past few years I have made some good friends. It was almost like I was having an imaginary conversation in my mind with a local friend, if they were looking over my shoulder i'd be going through the list being like "yep, they're cool...known them for a while.." etc.
I haven't found the end all know all but I've experienced some Life.
it's just cool.
I mean even if this whole things sucks in ways (hey! it does get better!), i never realized I would make actual friends on here, ones that I know and trust in a far different and somewhat deeper way than most of my Tulsa friends. We're going through something that WE all can sympathize with each other over. And I think that's one of the main things we really need, sometimes...
I was making my way home tonight. After stopping by the bar (to say hi to people!), I was wanting to maybe see a friend afterwords...so I called one friend up, and he wasn't there, so then I contemplated calling another friend. And well, it was late, but I decided to call anyway...maybe they would want to hang out.
I called and they were there and we talked for a bit and I realized I just needed to talk to someone a bit, I lost the desire to hang out for the night and came home. Interesting stuff.
But sometimes we're so caught up in finding the elusive magical cure that we find it hard to appreciate each other on here. At least I feel that way. It's hard to WANT to like the people on here because you don't want that DP thing to be a part of your life and your being. But at least look at it this way: You'll never hear about someone's webcam on this site!
Anyway I just think y'all are cool and it's kind of neat that I've known you guys for this long.
Oh and I'm doing relatively ok so don't think when I post "years" that means I'm still going through the worst of it. It's way better in an interesting way...a couple years ago I was trying to grasp the concepts of why it should be better, but now i'm realizing some more things and my life is DEFINITELY richer...
ok bye.
