[Mipmunk]

Is this possible, that you can come out of DP and be left with anxiety and depression. I had an awful day today, I don't feel well in myself but not DP'd?? I had a couple of dreadful panic attacks and felt nervous and when I was asked to do some letters it seemed like it was the hardest thing in the world. My mind seems all inwards and focussing in on me. I really don't know what is wrong with me. I cried my eyes out when I came home and this is having a terrible impact on my marriage.

If you have been DP'd for a long time and come out of it, can you be left with anxiety/depression???

I don't want to die, but I hate feeling like this.

I don't know where else to turn.

Mip

 

[Sojourner]

Is this possible, that you can come out of DP and be left with anxiety and depression. I had an awful day today, I don't feel well in myself but not DP'd?? I had a couple of dreadful panic attacks and felt nervous and when I was asked to do some letters it seemed like it was the hardest thing in the world. My mind seems all inwards and focussing in on me. I really don't know what is wrong with me. I cried my eyes out when I came home and this is having a terrible impact on my marriage.

If you have been DP'd for a long time and come out of it, can you be left with anxiety/depression???

I don't want to die, but I hate feeling like this.

I don't know where else to turn.

Mip

Mip,

Go to the emergency room of the closest hospital.

Nobody here can help you. That is, we have tried to help you over and over and over again. You post the same things over and over again and do not even indicate that you have HEARD or TRIED what we suggested.

You need professional help.

If you continue obliquely threatening suicide -- as you did in this post of yours -- you will not get more attention than you already have.

 

[Mipmunk]

I am sorry if I came across in a suicidal way, it wasn't meant like that. I would never take my life. What I meant is that the way I felt today at times was so bad it was unbearable, the panic attack was horrific I thought I was going to throw up in my boss's office. Why I was wondering if it was depression was that I felt bad, yet as soon as I got home and had a shower the feeling lifted. I am by no means 100%, but don't feel anywhere near as bad as what I did at work.

I did take up your suggestion and try to act like what I normally feel like, it worked at times, but then the anxiety and clammy hands would set in and I would just get a bad feeling come over me, then I feel bad for 15 minutes or so then it passes again.

I have tried lots of stuff, relaxation tapes, hypnosis, CBT (my therapist is currently on holiday), and my psychiatrist wants to change my meds to clomapramine (an anti depressant from the tricyclic group), but my GP won't change my meds yet as she thinks a change at the moment would worsen my condition. So they will not change my medication until I am back to normal.

I just sometimes get confused, all I know is that I don't feel like "me", whether it is still the DP with depression/anxiety thrown in as well, I am not sure.

I certainly didn't mean to upset you and when I said I don't want to die I don't, it certainly wasn't meant as some sort of suicide implication.

Sorry if I have offended you.

Mipmunk

 

[Sojourner]

No, you haven't offended me, Mip. I'm concerned about your welfare, and my posting didn't seem to be having a beneficial effect.

This post of yours now is more helpful, though.

I think you should stop your CBT therapy and get into therapy in which you discuss your feelings.

You have some interior conflict and CBT isn't going to give a hoot about it, really. You need psychoanalytical therapy -- face-to-face conversation with a trained therapist who helps people discover their unconscious conflicts.

I think your therapy is the wrong kind and that is why you are stuck. Your therapy isn't addressing how you FEEL, apparently. Your posts strongly suggest that you have much that you are holding in. A therapist can help you discover all this and BE with you while you discover it, keeping you safe and "grounded" while you go into scary territory.

I urge you to get a psychoanalytical therapist.

I wish you the best, and it breaks my heart to think that you are stuck and have no alternative -- I think you DO have one: a different sort of therapy. You don't seem to have a "habit" or "compulsion" so much as you have an affective disorder.

Your feelings are fairly SHOUTING in your posts -- you need the emotional release that CBT cannot and will not provide. CBTers treat people like animals (that's my slightly warped view). They want you to ACT first, and FEEL better later. I don't think it works for people like you and me, who are primarily people who have feelings.

You have a boatload of feelings that you are repressing and you need professional help to dislodge them so that you can heal completely.

http://www.apsa.org/members/olroster.htm (US)
http://www.psychoanalysis.org.uk/uklist.htm (UK)

Soj