Avanza (mirtazapine)

Hi, i have been taking avanza for about 2 1/2- 3 months and have not noticed anything at all.. no side effects and no good effects.. nothing.. this drug is meant to take a while and apparantly it can take extra long in some people but i would have thought i would have felt something, if anything side effects.

Anyones thoughts on this drug or if they know much about it or how long it takes would be appreciated.

Also since im posting: i said this in the chat room the other day and until i typed it i didnt realise how much i think this:

Sometimes when i see someone like some ugly bum from the gutter with nothing, i think to my self.. I would give anything to swap places with him.. he may not have any food or any friends or somewhere warm to sleep but at least he feels, he can taste the cold in the winter and feel the breeze and the freshness of life.. just being alive is enough and feeling hungry and alone at least its real.. people say to me ahh you must be depressed and im like i wish i was depressed at least then i would be feeling something real.. I am a blank nobody and i am so envious of people that can do physical activity's.. like i go for a ride on my push bike and its like im a zombie same when im driving.. all the time really.

Any thoughts?? at least im not alone. I wanna declair war on DP.