At my witts end with depersonalization.

I'm literally at my witts end with this condition. I just want to be me again. Starting to fall into depression again with it because I just feel like this will never go. Everyday I wake up with hope and it's there 24/7. I have no fight in me anymore, I am so mentally drained from this. No one understands and when I do try and open up I just get looked at like I have two heads. It's getting so bad now I actually feel like I am starting to go fucking crazy. I look around my house and I feel like I don't know who the fuck I am and where the hell I am, I don't recognise anything the way I use to and my memories are so faded and seem so fake. I feel so blocked mentally. I have got to the point now I don't even give a shite anymore, I just want to be me. Depersonalization has ruled my life now for nine months and I have had enough of it all. I know it's the depression talking but I just think to myself what is the point anymore, what's the point in living this life fighting everyday and never getting better. I hate how normal people can just go about there day and not have to deal with shit like this....everyday is just a battle now not to break down.

Going to see my Dr about medication and what they can do. Please let this be over with soon I miss me so much I want MY life back. I feel like someone has literally stole it from me.