[genie]

I was just wondering if anyone else shares these symptoms...I'm sure they are part of DP but it would be helpful if there are others out there that share them.

- Talking seems weird. It feels as though its not me talking and I keep wondering how I know what I am going to say in each sentence and how I know what word follows the next one.

- My thoughts feel as though they have been amplified. They dont just drift normally. Each thought almost echoes in my head and I'm constantly aware of them.

- My thought almost feel as though they dont come from me. I know they do, but they feel as though they dont. If a random song or thought pops in my head I keep questioning "why did I think of that?" Which has turned into an obsession in itself because whenever I think of something random I question where it comes from.

I also seem to have an obsession about questioning the workings of my brain. If I know the answer to something I keep questioning HOW did I know the answer etc etc (which is really getting very tiresome!)

Thanks for replying

Genie

 

[Guest]

Yep, that is dp for sure.

Actually, its Obsessive Self Monitoring and that goes along with dp very very often.
The RESULT is dp (the experience of not being oneself anymore) and it is aggravated by the self-watching.

When we turn ourselves inside out, we start looking/noticing the experience of BEING SELF more than we "use" self to experience the world. We implode our sense of reality in a way, and it's like a computer (with artificial intelligence) being told to examine its own "thinking" to such a degree that it chases its own tail until it eventually shuts down in overwhelm.

There are NO answers to your questions of "is this me?" or "how do I know I really thought that?" The belief that there are answers is an illusion and that is a trick of the symptom.

Try as hard as you can to NOT do that to yoruself..that questioning. It makes the dp stick! Trust me

Peace,
J

 

[genie]

I think my DP started after I suffered an large amount of anxiety and started to worry I was going to go insane.

This fear made me watch every single thought I had incase I said something 'not right' or that didnt make sense. I had read somewhere that schizophrenics give answers that dont follow the question thats been asked so I was pettrified that would happen to me.

I was also scared of my thoughts (e.g if I thought about crashing my car - something I would never do in reality) I was worried I'd follow it through so I watched my thoughts even more.

So I can kind of see how I got into the mess...now I just need to figure a way out of it!!

 

[genie]

When we turn ourselves inside out, we start looking/noticing the experience of BEING SELF more than we "use" self to experience the world. We implode our sense of reality in a way, and it's like a computer (with artificial intelligence) being told to examine its own "thinking" to such a degree that it chases its own tail until it eventually shuts down in overwhelm.

Oh by the way this makes perfect sense. It is like being turned inside out. I was told by a psychologist that we can not be the observer and the obserbed because it doesnt work as you would need two people for that and there is only one of us.

 

[kenc127]

those are the ones.