Dear Janine,
I dont know you very well, but I have a hunch that you may see the Freudian approach as the "right" way to solve your problems, although this conflicts with the views of your true Self, which is in fact a closet anticonvulsant neuropsych sympathiser. This "magical thinking" is often the case with an over-developed super-ego developed as a coping mechanism against certain trauma we may or may not wish to face or perhaps even remember. Rather than over-analyzing or focusing on the purpose of this post, just realise that your subconscious "Self" was free to express its true views this morning and that the journey itself begins with one step. You are learning, young Paduan. :twisted:
Okay, just a little ribbing there...DakotaJoe, I was thinking over your post. You're pretty much positive that your "Gaba-nergic" system is "shot to hell". If I believe your symptoms are as real and disabling as they are (and I do), my question would be why not take something that acts on GABA. For people that smoke, do hard drugs, or drink, it takes 8 years of abstinence before their brain scans appear normal again. You've been in this hell for 2, and from what I read, your previous normal was anxious, moody, and DPed. For what its worth, even when your system recovers, your GABA system is still going to need some finetuning. I just hate to see you taking what your body is dishing out with no respite in the near future.
Coucou, you're right. Paxil isnt the worst thing out there. My aunt takes it for obsessive compulsive disorder. It does give her side-effects, but she thinks they are worth it. If a post comes across as completely against a certain med, I would disregard it as biased. If someone didnt get releif from it, the drug company would have stopped making it, just because there was no money to be made. On the other hand, Joe just doesnt sound like the guy I would give it to. Only time will tell. Did you decide on what med you were going to try? I really recommend listening to your doctor, since your depression seems very deeply related to physical changes in your body after the birth of your child. We're good as a reference point for ideas, but they're just our best guesses - if we get them wrong, well, we dont have malpractice insurance because we arent liable for bad guesses. He has a vested interest in making sure you get well. Later!
Peace
Homeskooled 8)