[Thisissheyda]

Hello everyone
I am struggling with this weird condition which i cannot even be sure it's derealization or my brain being litterally dead 😂 i am extremely worried because i can't relate to most of the things i find about dp/dr like the things about feeling like you're observing yourself from outside or the world being dream like. But the world feels artificial and dull and lifeless and also me. And intellectually i can tell my brain is completely seperated from everything that happens around me and reality in general. It's to the the extent that i can't care about anything because it's like my brain doesn't process anything. I have also zero creativity. Zero interest in everything. I can't do any intellectual work properly like i can think only on the surface. I suspect i have lost my intellectual abilities. I used to be a bookworm, now reading is like just reading some sentences but no personal opinions or ideas hitting you throughout the read. I can't explain because i can't "think" so i can think of better ways to put it.when i try to think it's like my brain is full of something puffy but dense and i can't open a hole in it or put a flickr in it. It completely feels like my brain is dead or turn off. By the way i am diagnosed with bipolar disorder as well as derealization so i can't take antidepressants (

 

[Trith]

Hello everyone
I am struggling with this weird condition which i cannot even be sure it's derealization or my brain being litterally dead 😂 i am extremely worried because i can't relate to most of the things i find about dp/dr like the things about feeling like you're observing yourself from outside or the world being dream like. But the world feels artificial and dull and lifeless and also me. And intellectually i can tell my brain is completely seperated from everything that happens around me and reality in general. It's to the the extent that i can't care about anything because it's like my brain doesn't process anything. I have also zero creativity. Zero interest in everything. I can't do any intellectual work properly like i can think only on the surface. I suspect i have lost my intellectual abilities. I used to be a bookworm, now reading is like just reading some sentences but no personal opinions or ideas hitting you throughout the read. I can't explain because i can't "think" so i can think of better ways to put it.when i try to think it's like my brain is full of something puffy but dense and i can't open a hole in it or put a flickr in it. It completely feels like my brain is dead or turn off. By the way i am diagnosed with bipolar disorder as well as derealization so i can't take antidepressants (

This sounds a bit like what people describe as having a blank mind. I don't have that but it sounds similar to me.
I also have a mood disorder but I have been told by psychiatrists that I could take SSRIs as long as I took a mood stabilizer at the same time. So I have had a combination of lithium and SSRIs and also lamotrigine and an SSRI. It didn't help much though. But of course I think you should follow your doctor's instructions about this. Bipolar is serious.