[squish_is_me]

I sometimes find that one of the hardest things is dealing with the demand sof a 3yr old and a 4 1/2 month old when I slip into DR land. They want me to pay attention to them, talk to them, help them, feed them, sing to them and be totally attentive. All I want to do is veg out on the tv and try to remain calm until the feeling passes! I try to continue on and go about my normal activities refusing to allow this to paralize me but it is so hard to be so attentive to them and their needs when I am just trying to stay calm sitting where I am! I love my children dearly and would do anything for them! Does anyone understand what I am saying? Any good suggestions to help with this?

 

[terri*]

I'm bumping this up for Squishy as I know there are several of you that have younger children and I think it could really be helpful to share how you are/are not dealing with dp/dr and children.

Anybody?

My daughter was around 15 the first time I had this disorder. She basically blew me off as a nutcase and I spent a lot of time in the bathroom crying about what a nutcase I was. I can't imagine how it would be to deal with young children.

My best thoughts to you.
terri

 

[squish_is_me]

n/m

 

[Guest]

I have a daughter 12 and one on the way (talk about a shock to the old system) There are days that I want to curl up and die but I know that I can't do that to her and that seems to keep me going. I know at times I can be very self absorbed with this disorder, and I feel very guilty about the time I spend on the internet and on this site but honestly I don't know how I would keep going if it wasn't for this site. I feel it is what lets me hold on to a thread of reality. Take care
Kate

 

[Milan]

I have a 4 1/2 year old boy. Dearest thing to me and it's probably because of him that I've had the will to continue. But it is extremely hard when your anxiety is high and it smothers all your other emotions - I feel so guilty when that happens. The one thing that saddens me the most is when I think back on how much he use to make my emotions come out. They still do but there always a little muted due to this disorder. He truly gives my life meaning.

 

[terri*]

It is amazing the strength we will find to somehow keep it together just enough to make it thru the day for our children. Somedays we do a better job than others. There are many days still that I have to really focas on the fact they are a wonderful reason to stay in this world and fight the good fight.

I'm really glad a few Moms came on. I think there is a great need to share the emotional part of having children and dealing with dp/dr.

Most sincerely,
terri

 

[squish_is_me]

I always feel the great emotion for my daughter I always did and we often go out and play and I try my best to make time for her especially me and her alone time! Well I have a baby so that is a big thing and trying as it is to have an infant and a toddler. But then when I have hugh anxiety or DR days I just feel like I wish she could play alone... and I feel 100% horrible for saying so! I didnt feel like this as much before I had my son though. When I have those days I think it is trying to attend to the needs of both of them that makes it the hardest!

 

[Guest]

yes, I have kids. This will sound strange but so far the worst things have been having to 1) travel/ drive them places and 2) associate with other people (their friends and their friends' parents) because I am agorphobic and have social phobias, so those two things are really bad (for me).

 

[samantha]

This taken from some of my writing, it's from a conversation with one of my children one morning and the detachement (and disinterest-guilt) I felt as we talked:

mummy ?I saw outside?, what, ?outside?, it?s dark though, no it?s light, yeah you?re right it?s only dark for me, frightened, only look inside only-that?s frightening, mummy ?where did all this come from-god made the earth and builders made everything else?, yes if you say so who told you that and do I really care

Just posted something today and it included a bit about the guilt I feel towards my children-the forum topic is called "Love". The waves of guilt are too much to bear at times, deep questions about love and do I feel it.