[allison84]

I've noticed that when I think off memories I cannot for the life of me picture myself , my face nothing .
Is this what everyone gets when depersonalizated ?
It's pretty freaky shouldn't I be able to imagine my own face it's as if I cant place myself in my past ..
Input greatly appreciated

 

[allison84]

Ok I think this is normal from what I've read bahahaha
I'm over thinking everything
Feeling pretty messy at the moment

 

[alnadine20]

Ya I cant even remember what I look like

 

[anitas]

I would love to "think " of memories. I miss that. My mind is completely black every single day. I can't access anything its like being in a dark room. No ideas,no imagination ,no planning ,no images,no memories ,basically non functional. It's torture everyday and on top of that trying to survive the torture without doing anything stupid. It's not trauma it's not anxiety. It's basically a brain that decided to turn against me for months. I've been dealing with so many "stages " of dp so fast that ended up where I am. At the beginning I used to read posts about "blank mind " and be like nahhh I'm cool. Litle did I know that once it starts happening there's nothing you can do to stop it. Never thought was gonna end up like this. It happened so fast. Only a miracle to save me. I really don't know how much longer I can survive this. No one deserves this.

 

[anitas]

:-(

 

[Jix]

Yes i had that for a while. I know exactly what you mean. Idk, i think after i accepted what was going on with me and figured out what i was so afraid of, alot of my symptoms have been alleviated. Its still there tho just not as severe and i still dont know if i ever truely feel like i did in the past since im so used to how things are now. Maybe thats how recovery is, hell if i know. But some hopeful words is that its definently possible for that feeling to go away or at least be forgotten about.