[Sofa]

Hi! I experience a bad blank mind and bad cognition, as well as loss of my inner world.

I used to have a room in my head for thinking, like a physical space i could Feel. Here i would se all my memories and recall knowledge and information, do more complex thinking and daydreaming. As well as i would get all automatic processes like spontanious images and thougts and associations when speaking reading and seeing stuff/smelling stuff etc.


That space/room is gone now, so i struggle with thinking. My mind is completely blank. No memories to pop up or any connection to things. I cant get images inside my head, but i can see images outside my head. There is this strange resistance in my head.

I used to be able to see several pictures at once in my head and read at the same time. Cant do that anymore. The headspace where i would hold those images and thougts are gone.

When i close my eyes i dont enter that thinking space, but just a grey static fog and nothingness.

I also cannot think complex thoughts or ruminate about different topics and ideas.
My mind has lost all flexability and is hard as stone.

My inner world and thinking space is gone. My head literally Feel flat right now.

Anyone else experienced losing contact with this space? Is it possible to get it back?

 

[Surfingisfun001]

I experience this 100%. Good job at describing it. It's hard to even describe.

 

[Sofa]

I experience this 100%. Good job at describing it. It's hard to even describe.

It feels like my head has shrunk really. Scared i wont get it back. The is no space inside my head anymore.

Have you heard of Anyone who got it back?

 

[coolwhip27]

It feels like my head has shrunk really. Scared i wont get it back. The is no space inside my head anymore.

Have you heard of Anyone who got it back?

I really relate to the feeling of having a shrunk brain. it’s true that space is actually needed for the mind. but what is space? I suffer from all this, a lot.
The lack of space means the mind is in a state without clarity. There is a locked up feeling of not being able to choose the right path. But if we didn’t have to choose a certain direction then wouldn’t we automatically be at peace? But you don’t approach that by thinking of it as a means to an end. “Hey, if my thought shuts up I’ll be at peace! Let me try!”. You’ll find that it won’t work. You see that there is no means to an end at all, because the moment effort is implied there isn’t freedom

 

[Lewis]

Yes I experience the exact same thing amongst others. I think looking at the neuroscience is the only way to understand. It’s likely something to do with default mode network in the brain which connects yourself memories thinking

 

[Sofa]

Yes I experience the exact same thing amongst others. I think looking at the neuroscience is the only way to understand. It’s likely something to do with default mode network in the brain which connects yourself memories thinking

I have lost my thinking space completely. It is totally gone. When i close my eyes there is no room inside my head anymore. No space for holding thougts and memories and images and daydreams.
I have an inner monologue and can somewhat visualize, but that is all. The space for «me» is gone.

I have no emotions either. My brain does not respond to anythfing at all.
What could cause all these strange changes?

 

[Lewis]

Yes I’m the same for 7 years. It’s a defence mechanism stuck in short. I think it’s a disconnection of brain areas not connecting properly hence (dissociation) I’ve had a brain scan Qeeg and it actually shows an area overactive and under connected which has been shown in dp
Looking to do neurofeedback soon

 

[leminaseri]

Yes I’m the same for 7 years. It’s a defence mechanism stuck in short. I think it’s a disconnection of brain areas not connecting properly hence (dissociation) I’ve had a brain scan Qeeg and it actually shows an area overactive and under connected which has been shown in dp
Looking to do neurofeedback soon

dont know why but 99% of the people in this forum who became ultimately stuck with dpdr do have particularly this (blank mind) symptoms. others who dont have this "blank mind", do recover like snapping with the fingers.

 

[Sofa]

Yes I’m the same for 7 years. It’s a defence mechanism stuck in short. I think it’s a disconnection of brain areas not connecting properly hence (dissociation) I’ve had a brain scan Qeeg and it actually shows an area overactive and under connected which has been shown in dp
Looking to do neurofeedback soon

Can neurofeedback help reconnect the brain?

My head feels so strange all the time.

 

[Trith]

dont know why but 99% of the people in this forum who became ultimately stuck with dpdr do have particularly this (blank mind) symptoms. others who dont have this "blank mind", do recover like snapping with the fingers.

It might be true but I would be a counter example of that, I would be in the 1%. I generally don't feel I have a blank mind, at least I don't identify with how it is described, but I definitely identify as being stuck for now.