My symptoms had not begun after smoking, overdosing, inhaling, sniffing, or anything else drug-related. I cannot pinpoint an event or specific time it "just happened." It was more a process. I cannot relate to the drug-use stories, and am curious if others have DP that had not begun with drug use?
anyone else's DP-"how it began"-story NOT drug rel
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HI ALL IM LISA 27 FROM CROYDON, I HAVE SUFFERED FROM DP AN DR SINCE I WERE ABOUT 8
I HONESTLY DONT KNOW HOW OR WHY IT STARTED MY PARENTS TOLD ME I HAD NIGHT TERRORS SINCE I WERE A YEAR OLD TOO UP TO AGE 5 OR 6
I HAD THE FEELINGS OF BEING IN A DREAM, NOT REALLY THERE, ETC SINCE I WERE 8 I REMEMBER MY MUM AND DAD RUSHED ME TO THE HOSPITAL BUT OBVIOUSLY THEY COULDNT HELP ME WE ALSO WENT TO THE DOCTORS AND THAT WERE NO USER EITHER ALL THEY DID WAS ADMIT ME TO A PLACE FOR CHILDREN WITH BEHAVOUR PROBLEMS AND I WAS LOOKED UPON AS A ATTENTION SEEKER THIS ONLY MADE ME WORSE AS IT REALLY SCARED ME I HONESTLY THOUGHT I WAS GOING MAD. WHEN I HAD THE FULL BLOWN ATTACK I WOULD GET HYSTERIACAL MY PARENTS USE TO SLAP ME AND SCREAM AT ME TO STOP IT BUT IT ONLY MADE THE ATTACK WORSE
I STARTED SELF HARMING AS SOME DAYS THE UNREAL FEELING WAS CONSTANTLEY THERE IT WAS LIKE A RELEASE
I HAVE BEEN THROUGH HELL AND BACK BELIEVE ME WITH THIS IVE ENDED UP IN A MENTAL HOSPITAL I HAVE 2 BOYS AND I HAVE LOST CUSTODY OF ONE SON BECAUSE MY EX CLASSED ME AS A PYSCHO AND A NUTTER BECAUSE OF THESE ATTACKS
BECAUSE THE PLACES I WERE GOING TO DID NOT THINK I HAD THIS INFACT THEY JUST SAID I HAVE A MULITIPLE PERSONALITY DISORDER WHICH IS TOTALLY UNTRUE YES I HAVE MY LOWS BUT WHO WOULDNT WHEN YOUR GOING THROUGH THEASE WEIRD ATTACKS?????
IM STILL SUFFERING NOW SOMETIMES ITS AS THOUGH THE ATTACKS PLAY GAMES WITH ME IF I MANAGE TO CONTROL ONE THEN THE NEXT ONE COMES TWICE AS BAD
IM JUST HAPPY I FINALLY FOUND OTHER PEOPLE WITH THE SAME PROBLEMS NOW I NO LONGER FEEL SO ALONE
I HONESTLY DONT KNOW HOW OR WHY IT STARTED MY PARENTS TOLD ME I HAD NIGHT TERRORS SINCE I WERE A YEAR OLD TOO UP TO AGE 5 OR 6
I HAD THE FEELINGS OF BEING IN A DREAM, NOT REALLY THERE, ETC SINCE I WERE 8 I REMEMBER MY MUM AND DAD RUSHED ME TO THE HOSPITAL BUT OBVIOUSLY THEY COULDNT HELP ME WE ALSO WENT TO THE DOCTORS AND THAT WERE NO USER EITHER ALL THEY DID WAS ADMIT ME TO A PLACE FOR CHILDREN WITH BEHAVOUR PROBLEMS AND I WAS LOOKED UPON AS A ATTENTION SEEKER THIS ONLY MADE ME WORSE AS IT REALLY SCARED ME I HONESTLY THOUGHT I WAS GOING MAD. WHEN I HAD THE FULL BLOWN ATTACK I WOULD GET HYSTERIACAL MY PARENTS USE TO SLAP ME AND SCREAM AT ME TO STOP IT BUT IT ONLY MADE THE ATTACK WORSE
I STARTED SELF HARMING AS SOME DAYS THE UNREAL FEELING WAS CONSTANTLEY THERE IT WAS LIKE A RELEASE
I HAVE BEEN THROUGH HELL AND BACK BELIEVE ME WITH THIS IVE ENDED UP IN A MENTAL HOSPITAL I HAVE 2 BOYS AND I HAVE LOST CUSTODY OF ONE SON BECAUSE MY EX CLASSED ME AS A PYSCHO AND A NUTTER BECAUSE OF THESE ATTACKS
BECAUSE THE PLACES I WERE GOING TO DID NOT THINK I HAD THIS INFACT THEY JUST SAID I HAVE A MULITIPLE PERSONALITY DISORDER WHICH IS TOTALLY UNTRUE YES I HAVE MY LOWS BUT WHO WOULDNT WHEN YOUR GOING THROUGH THEASE WEIRD ATTACKS?????
IM STILL SUFFERING NOW SOMETIMES ITS AS THOUGH THE ATTACKS PLAY GAMES WITH ME IF I MANAGE TO CONTROL ONE THEN THE NEXT ONE COMES TWICE AS BAD
IM JUST HAPPY I FINALLY FOUND OTHER PEOPLE WITH THE SAME PROBLEMS NOW I NO LONGER FEEL SO ALONE
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·I think I may suffer from something similar (not drug-fueled), but I can't be too sure. Please see my post titled 'Stress-induced DP/DR?' in this forum. Thanks!
The cause of my DP is not drug related either. I was six years old when it first happened. I was thinking about God when when this weird adrenaline rush came over me. It became constant a couple years later, 24/7. I don't know if it was the God thoughts that did it or some childhood trauma. Or maybe thinking about God is traumatizing for a child so young.
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·Hola,
Ummm........no, I dont believe it was drug use that brought me to this dance. However I believe a healthy dose of non stop stress and mental anguish may of had something to do with it. :wink:
Best,
Tony
Ummm........no, I dont believe it was drug use that brought me to this dance. However I believe a healthy dose of non stop stress and mental anguish may of had something to do with it. :wink:
Best,
Tony
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·this just reminded me of something...i remember standing out by my house in the dark...at a young age...like 7 or 8...praying to God...to save me.....a strange "feeling" came over me...and i think that's when it started....i dont think it was finding out i was adopted that triggered it...peacedove said:
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i still cant explain what started it although the other day i was sat in my front room and this horrible feeling of dread washed over me and that feeling took me straight back to when my dp/dr was at its worst that horrible feeling was with me constanley all them years but luckily it went within 5 mins i honestly dont know how i coped!!!!! it was scary!!!! :shock:
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No I feel you. I've never tried a drug in my life.
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I still don't know the cause of mine. I had never touched a drug or been abused before it happened.
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Mine just happen over night. One day I felt normal, the next day I "woke" up DP'd. I've been this way ever since. But I was raped when I was very young and used to see "Shadow figures" throughout my childhood. So, that's probably why mine started.
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The SAME thing happened to me. I was about 8 or 10. The next day i knew something was wrong. It was like....i just knew...i'd look in the mirror...and would barely recognize myself. :shock:peacedove said:
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Mines is not drug-related either. I think it all started when I was young because I had no one to talk to about my problems. I would always keep things inside of me. I couldn't talk to my mom because she wouldn't understand (speak another native language) and I had no sisters. My brothers would be boys and they wouldn't care. So, I would just keep things inside and try to ignore them but I would still have them in me. Then I guess it led to stress. Idk, it seems like a blurr now. But I'm living with DP and it is a tough job to live with. I just wished I was back to normal again.
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My DP started when I was around 8 as the result of sexual abuse (although, I really dont see it as sexual abuse - but as an 8 year old kid is ANY sex NOT abuse). I was sleeping over with my cousin and he was penetrating me. I didnt want to tell him to stop because there was a part of me that liked the feeling, but in my mind I felt that it was wrong. So I just went "somewhere else" and never told him to stop. I was so conflicted by enjoying the feeling but feeling that it was wrong that I wasnt able to deal with it.
finally DPD in someone who isn't a stoner.
Yeah, I got DPD & DRD like this: First there was stress
then my friends left
then I was super depressed
then I was manic
then I had a mental collapse and more depression
then the old me died from an existential crisis
then my brain rewired with DPD and it never left
behold the ascetic DPD story : )
Yeah, I got DPD & DRD like this: First there was stress
then my friends left
then I was super depressed
then I was manic
then I had a mental collapse and more depression
then the old me died from an existential crisis
then my brain rewired with DPD and it never left
behold the ascetic DPD story : )
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Thanks for your posts, guys. Mine started after a breakup; I'd had brief instances of it before, over the years, but each one was just for a minute or two. This last time has stuck for a few years. I think it's getting better, little by little; sort of hard to tell, but I'm getting less numb. Great to know I'm not alone.
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Mine was exactly the same as yours, I've had depersonalization for as long as I can remember though it gradually got worse and worse until I was about 17 or 18 where I worked out what was wrong. I don't recall ever experiencing anything traumatic and I was never abused, I just guess I'm unlucky. I'm 19 now and I've since smoked weed, tried ecstasy and other amphetamines and it neither made my problem better nor worse. So it's definitely not all drug-related.flowingly said:
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i just went through a huge transition and if DP is really what i am going through then mine was stress/anxiety related NOT drug related.
it was a in a moment....i was whole, fine and the next i was not. the feeling i have now is not being attached to my body at all. So what does that make my body? i don't feel like my body has a person attached to it at all right now. i don't feel like a human being much less me. can anyone else related at all? i don't have symptoms of feeling like i'm in a dream or floatiness or anything like that. just totally detached. my outer shell is all by its lonesome without the substance of me attached.
it was a in a moment....i was whole, fine and the next i was not. the feeling i have now is not being attached to my body at all. So what does that make my body? i don't feel like my body has a person attached to it at all right now. i don't feel like a human being much less me. can anyone else related at all? i don't have symptoms of feeling like i'm in a dream or floatiness or anything like that. just totally detached. my outer shell is all by its lonesome without the substance of me attached.
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