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·Hi everyone, I am a 26 y. o. female and have had Menier's Diease since 10 years old and have somehow gotten over that but have now been diagnosed with BPPV (Benign Paroxysmal Positional Vertigo). Both diseases are of severe vertigo. I have been paralyzed to leave the house for over a year, with phobias of getting stuck outside dizzy with no one to help me. It is a horrible feeling having to have my husband do EVERYTHING "outdoors" for me. Because of this I cry all the time, I suffer from low self-esteem, have so much stress, and have had suicidal thoughts. I have developed DP a week ago and am wondering, is this my brain's way of saying "Thats it, I can't take it, Your on your own!" ? Whats amazing though is, I feel like this is a gift from God, which sounds absurd, but for over a year of being under "house arrest", I got so terrified and had so much hatred for this DP that I actually faced my fear and got in the car with my husband and went to buy fast food without the fear of being dizzy. Its amazing to go out again but it does suck doing it with the DP rushing through my mind. I just wish I could keep the intensity to get out in the world but not rely on my fear of DP terrorizing me to get out![/i]