I'm with Martin on this one.. the idea of 'nothing' scares me beyond all measure but I think that the idea of infinity and another life after this is even worse, just going on and on and on... brrrr. I hate both ideas but that one is definately worse.
i feel like dp has given me a glimpse as to what eternity feels like.
one of my symptoms ( i dont know if you guys get this or not ) is that i have no sense of time. i never think ... oh that was quick...or that took way long...or 3 hours have passed. theres just no sense of time passing.
but to answer, i would say i believe in a Higher Power...not necessarily a christian or buddhist or hindu god...just something that is greater than i am exists...
used to be scared of death, sometimes am still and wanted there to be something after. but in my initial full blown dp period i believed that if i died then i would stay in that state for ever.hell. this is the main rason i think i lived to tell the tale as i felt there was no escape. many years on, with alot of dp free times under my belt, i still get that fear of dp forever but only on rare dp occasions. the thought of forever with no escape scares the hell out of me. so really i've come recently to the conclusion that dp is a chemical imbalance in the brain and when the brain dies it does too. anyway forever is too long for anything
i believe that i am going to heaven when i die because i have accepted the sacrifice Jesus paid for my sins.i know this life is so short compared to eternity and that keeps me going because however bad this life can be, i know in heaven there will be no pain, no tears, NO DP ever again!!!Jesus has paid for every person's sins, but only those who will receive the gift of eternal life will have it.
I, like Gizmo and lostvisionlostfeeling have the wonderful assurance of the next life in heaven forever with the Lord Jesus. I also pray that others in this forum will receive divine revelation and come to have the same assurance we do. No sickness, no pain, NO DP/DR, eternal bliss forever.
I can't wait!!!
I also pray that there is not an afterlife. I wouldn't mind being reincarnated (highly skeptical of this) as someone with a functional brain. Eternity doesn't necessarily scare me, as long as i'm no longer myself anymore. Being ziggomatix got old a long fucking time ago. I love everyone's attitude in this forum. It dark, nihilistic and depressed just like mine. Hooray!
My soul has left my body more than once. So I know there is a soul.
As far as the afterlife, this is the closest I've gotten:
Once I had a lucid dream and I asked God to show me the afterlife/ other side. I thought I would feel my soul pulled out of my body, but instead I felt it pulled in. Then I saw the back of my eyes, then I saw my bloodstream, then I saw the inside of one of my cells, and then it was like I was being pushed through a pane of glass and I saw... the world looking exactly as it does now but calmer and cleaner.
I am not sure about an afterlife(maybe this life is an afterlife), but there is no such thing as death in this world, nothing dissapears into nothingness. There is transformation but not death. I know that our conciousness is a product of all brain functions, but it can not die. Its like fire, always exists but in order to see it you need wood and heat.
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