[fletricity]

symptoms are getting worse. there is something in my head. my comprehension skills are going down. (like reading comprehenion). i need help; i can bally write. the easiest thing to do is go to routine. how i write, how i normally write. this needs fixing. my dads asleeping. i need to go get my brain checked. there's some serious problem. it needs to be done now! it has never been this bad. i don't what it is. i just can't analyze it.

i put so much brain power in that i thought ive written more.

please reply! i need fixing. no matter what you have to say, i need help. emergency! please reply.

 

[fletricity]

yeah and the only way i can do those things is to do them in a way which i have done before. like put a current attitude to what i'm reading; so i can understand it's color. i don't even know entirely what i'm saying, what i'm writing right now, its purely thought. i simply can can only write or say things or.. in the way i have done. in a way which i know i can put a subject to.. i try to listen to a few songs but i'm trying, i can't keep a connection to them. i don't know what to much do in my free time, but i'm not bored.. but i want to do something.

yeah and if somebody did that: what you said in your second sentence. i wouldnt be able to sympathize or empathize, i would... this is driving me crazy but i make it slow. nothing comes off strong.

which only makes this problem much less easy going.

i got a million problems but now i'm starting to get blind! or maybe a little deaf. (not literally, through i do have issues in both.. physically but that's another issue... [a problem i worry about, not presently])

if only it weren't for my probably unrealistic scares; i could get through this. i know.

i do not want to learn to manifest from this and live from this.

i asked my dad and, he said a few more weeks..

just trying to reply..

thanks for bothering!