[blardyblar]

Hi, i'm new here...just trying to make sense of some thoughts i've been experiencing for the past 6 months or so. I don't feel as though i'm stuck in a mental state of unreality, but it feels like I can almost induce it by overthinking. Today I was sitting in class and just started thinking, as I often do, about my existence and my thoughts, and I was overwhelmed/freaked out by a very unreal state of altered consciousness. Similar to tripping, though i've never done LSD so it can't be a flashback (ive only done mushrooms and LSA). I have experienced similar feelings while smoking pot before, like i'm detached from my surroundings. I still smoke pot semi-regularly and am very conscious of my changing perceptions. Much moreso than others it appears. I end up freaking myself out thinking about how other people are experiencing a completely separate consciousness, and how I am unique and alone in my thoughts. The description of losing one's sense of self seems fitting...I feel very strange but not so much out of body. If anything I feel more trapped in a body. I should also mention that I have had Social anxiety for the past 5 years now.

So...does this sound like DP or DR? Does it initially come in waves like this? Should I be more careful with my marijuana use? When i'm stoned I don't so much mind the feeling...it's a bit freaky but I just feel like it's me tripping. It's when it happens while sober that I become more confused/worried. I've been trying some meditation and reading buddhist literature lately to try and calm my psyche.
Overall a very difficult feeling to describe. Any thoughts would be helpful.

edit* Just remembered after this brief episode today I was worrying this must be what Alzheimers is like....any correlation there? My grandfather died of Alzheimers years ago and I remember his total loss of self and identity. Maybe that just accompanies the detioration of one's memory. DP/DR'ers have any memory problems?

Thanks

 

[Sojourner]

Alzheimer's Disease kills brain cells.

It is unknown what marijuana does over the long term.

Quit smoking pot. Get high on something that's good for you, such as doing something good for someone else. That creates endorphins in your brain, the chemicals responsible for pleasure.

 

[Guest]

I have only ever done the following drugs: LSA (once), Mushrooms (once) and marijuana (many times) - very similar to your own usage. I have never taken LSD.

On June 13th, 7 months after my last hallucinogenic drug use and 3 months after my last ingestion of any sort of drug (including marijuana), I started having extremely intense DP/DR. I was basically tripping.

It's still going strong. My advice to you is to stop doing drugs for a while.

 

[LOSTONE]

Stop doing drugs PERMANENTLY! Or things will only get worse.