[shadowness]

well i am seeing a hypnotherapist on Thursday and i am feeling quite optimistic about it apart from two things....

1...everytime i try to talk to my mother about it the conversation drifts to an awkward silence and i know she does not approve of me doing this. and so i feel uncomfortable going as i know she is not keen on the idea and that she thinks that it is not a great idea...

2...i have to travel 35 minutes by car (which will cost about ?20 to get there :? ) but at least i will be able to ask the driver to stop and at least i will have company during the journey or 30 minutes by train on my own :? (other than other passengers of course) but it will e cheaper...and at the moment i can just about go down the road forabout 10 minutes! :shock:

going to see this hypnotherapist seems really wrong as everything seems to be against going and i obviously feel worried about getting and being there....but it feels right somehow as it just might be the thing tht helps...

i just feel so confused and feel so alone...

i do not think my mother really wants me to do this....and going without her approval feels really odd and scary...

i do not want to miss this chance as the treatment is free and even if i just helps me relax that will help...

i just feel confused and scared on the whole :shock:

any comments would really be appreciated.

 

[dreamcatcher]

shadowness......bite the bullet....you have wanted this for so long...dont get side tracked now.....cant you see if any of your mates will tag along with u? as for your mum she is just probably concerened that you expect this to cure you 100% and she doesnt want to see you more upset....if she hasnt told you not to go than you are not going against her....give it a go....it cant get worse than this

 

[shadowness]

thank you very much dreamcatcher...

i just fear feeling like this...and i am hoping that the hypnotherapy will help...but i also fear feeling better if it works well...

and i just hope my mother is going to be ok with this...

suppose i just have to see how it goes...

 

[Guest]

Go for it. Sounds interesting if nothing else. I'll even give you a lift if you want me to. I love to drive.
(I will need at least 3 weeks advance notice (5 days to drive to New York, 8-10 days on the boat, at least three days being lost as soon as I reach land again, renting a car, etc.)

 

[shadowness]

Go for it. Sounds interesting if nothing else. I'll even give you a lift if you want me to. I love to drive.
(I will need at least 3 weeks advance notice (5 days to drive to New York, 8-10 days on the boat, at least three days being lost as soon as I reach land again, renting a car, etc.)

haha!

thank you sc

i think i might get a cab there and a train back or visa versa...

thanks for the lift offer but i think i will pass...for your sake!

 

[Guest]

SHADOWNESS.

I had hypno-therapy...

It's great. It relaxes you.

I got DR in it.

Um...
*A problem* (spooky music)

I had Hypnotherapy with someone who put me under VERY deep. It's horrible because you cant control anything, and the hypnotherapist can say whatever they like.
I got a TERRIFIC result when I woke up.

I cant "go home happy" though...
I had to walk for FOUR hours until I was so exhausted that my lifted mood wouldn't show... my Mother would have killed it. Killed it. (I cant explain, sorry!)

I think you should get the train. (Am I too late to post this???) Because then you can get the train back and hide your "happy" among strangers, and let it wear off a bit, in case your Mum is like mine.

xxx

 

[shadowness]

SHADOWNESS.

I had hypno-therapy...

It's great. It relaxes you.

I got DR in it.

Um...
*A problem* (spooky music)

I had Hypnotherapy with someone who put me under VERY deep. It's horrible because you cant control anything, and the hypnotherapist can say whatever they like.
I got a TERRIFIC result when I woke up.

I cant "go home happy" though...
I had to walk for FOUR hours until I was so exhausted that my lifted mood wouldn't show... my Mother would have killed it. Killed it. (I cant explain, sorry!)

I think you should get the train. (Am I too late to post this???) Because then you can get the train back and hide your "happy" among strangers, and let it wear off a bit, in case your Mum is like mine.

xxx

thank you for your reply ghost...

you say you experienced dr in it...did it actually make you dp/dr worse though?

why did you have to walk for four hours?!?!

 

[Guest]

thank you for your reply ghost...

you say you experienced dr in it...did it actually make you dp/dr worse though?

why did you have to walk for four hours?!?!

Because I'm an idiot

I cant go home "happy"... My Mum is the sort of person who tries to make you depressed if you're happy (Dont ask, ghost probably "makes it up" so NEVERMIND).

I walked until I got so tired that my mood was less high.
It was the first time I was put under. I got under very deep and it was like a strong anti-depressant.
The "abusive" therapist I had was my second one after I moved out of home. I may have gone into DR to get away from His freaky ignorant manner, I was highly traumatised at the time, but I found out an INTERNAL DIALOGUE is possible in DR, and that it takes away my panic symptoms... I just refuse to "give", that's all. My Psychiatric symptoms clear up in DR, but the "world" gets nothing from me.

I may have responded strongly to Hypnosis because of the fact that I have no internal dialogue, but it helped the stress, so I think if you have high anxiety shadowness that it would help.
Hypnosis does work, it's real.

I was scared that your Mum had a hidden agenda like mine, I was surprised at the extent to which my Mum sabotaged me getting well

 

[shadowness]

Because I'm an idiot

I cant go home "happy"... My Mum is the sort of person who tries to make you depressed if you're happy (Dont ask, ghost probably "makes it up" so NEVERMIND).

I walked until I got so tired that my mood was less high.
It was the first time I was put under. I got under very deep and it was like a strong anti-depressant.
The "abusive" therapist I had was my second one after I moved out of home. I may have gone into DR to get away from His freaky ignorant manner, I was highly traumatised at the time, but I found out an INTERNAL DIALOGUE is possible in DR, and that it takes away my panic symptoms... I just refuse to "give", that's all. My Psychiatric symptoms clear up in DR, but the "world" gets nothing from me.

I may have responded strongly to Hypnosis because of the fact that I have no internal dialogue, but it helped the stress, so I think if you have high anxiety shadowness that it would help.
Hypnosis does work, it's real.

I was scared that your Mum had a hidden agenda like mine, I was surprised at the extent to which my Mum sabotaged me getting well

i am sorry your mother is not being supportive...

i think my mum is worried that i am making a mistake as she does not really know anything about hypnosis and i think she thinks that it is going to make matters worse if i go through with it.

if i do not go i will regret it as i will wonder if it would have helped...

i suppose i am scared to feel worse after the treatment but what if i feel better?

i am sure it will help at least something...i find that a little scary in itself but i am hoping that the hypnotherapy will help me cope and relieve some of my anxiety and at least get a bit of me feeling like me again. and as the treatment is free i think i would be mad to miss the opportunity!

i have no idea whether i am doing the right thing...but then again who does?

considering that i never want to go back to medication i have to find something else that will help...

thank you so very much for your comments

 

[Guest]

i am sorry your mother is not being supportive...

i think my mum is worried that i am making a mistake as she does not really know anything about hypnosis and i think she thinks that it is going to make matters worse if i go through with it.

if i do not go i will regret it as i will wonder if it would have helped...

i suppose i am scared to feel worse after the treatment but what if i feel better?

i am sure it will help at least something...i find that a little scary in itself but i am hoping that the hypnotherapy will help me cope and relieve some of my anxiety and at least get a bit of me feeling like me again. and as the treatment is free i think i would be mad to miss the opportunity!

i have no idea whether i am doing the right thing...but then again who does?

considering that i never want to go back to medication i have to find something else that will help...

thank you so very much for your comments

I'm sorry, I find it hard to shut up.

I think you "know" that it will help, I think you feel drawn to it.

I can "hear" you say it's free, yes free is good.

Your Mum sounds anxious...

 

[shadowness]

I'm sorry, I find it hard to shut up.

I think you "know" that it will help, I think you feel drawn to it.

I can "hear" you say it's free, yes free is good.

Your Mum sounds anxious...

no no your feedback has been great thank you very much! yuo do not need to shut up!

yeahi am thinking it will help...and i am a litle scared that it might...not feeling this would feel scary too but hopefully i will not be too anxious....

i think my mother it just worried...it is the first thing that i have really done 'against her will' i suppose...

well i am going tomorrow morning :shock:

i am going to take a little write up about how i am feeling and how i think it all started just incase...

 

[Guest]

no no your feedback has been great thank you very much! you do not need to shut up!

yeah i am thinking it will help...and i am a litle scared that it might...not feeling this would feel scary too but hopefully i will not be too anxious....

i think my mother is just worried...it is the first thing that i have really done 'against her will' i suppose...

well i am going tomorrow morning :shock:

i am going to take a little write up about how i am feeling and how i think it all started just in case...

:shock:

:shock:
I do SO need to shut up...

You need to feel scared that it will help to keep you alert.

Ah-HA. It's the first thing you've ever done against your Mother's will: DO IT

You dont think the therapist will believe you (by the last sentance)...

I thought I was THE MOST scared person on earth... turns out I'm not... I always get accused of paranoia...

You sound like pippy longstocking siamese twinned with gizmo...

 

[shadowness]

:shock:
:shock:
I do SO need to shut up...

You need to feel scared that it will help to keep you alert.

Ah-HA. It's the first thing you've ever done against your Mother's will: DO IT

You dont think the therapist will believe you (by the last sentance)...

I thought I was THE MOST scared person on earth... turns out I'm not... I always get accused of paranoia...

You sound like pippy longstocking siamese twinned with gizmo...

yeah i will go tomorrow even if i have to force myself by strapping myself to a car! :lol:

it is not that i do no think the hypnotherapist will believe me by saying taht i am going to show him a write up about dp/dr...it is so that he can take a look at all the things i am thinking and feelig incase i forget to mention anything...i want him to understand as much as possible incase he is not sure what i mean...

i KNOW that i am not worst off than everyone else...but that does not mean it is not a problem...i KNOW i am over reacting over my symptoms...but that does not help them go away....it is as if i need someone to say to me that all is fine without me having the slightest doubt....so that is why i think hypnotherapy will help...

if it helps then great!

if it does not help then i will just have to either try it again another time or try something else...