[peaceboy23]

Ugh, it seems like everytime things get better I get another relapse into the dp/anxiety land. Tonight it's back, the thoughts that I'm having too many thoughts, words seem wierd in my head, i feel that if I don't consciously have thoughts i will stop thinking all together and perish, i dont' belong, i'm just floating around, my brain is tingly and hot, all that fun stuff...I guess it's good that I'm having better days, hoping that things are getting better, but i hate the relapses, they seem that much worse when they come. Sigh. Just a night rambling out of frustaration.

 

[Da'Burgh]

Ugh, it seems like everytime things get better I get another relapse into the dp/anxiety land. Tonight it's back, the thoughts that I'm having too many thoughts, words seem wierd in my head, i feel that if I don't consciously have thoughts i will stop thinking all together and perish, i dont' belong, i'm just floating around, my brain is tingly and hot, all that fun stuff....

So I'm told, that's gonna happen during a recovery phase. Keep on going.

 

[M A R S]

I have been having a day like this too.. I'm going to bed now and ill add you to my prayers. I hope all is well.

 

[Guest]

I most certainly relate to what your saying. It seems like for me, everytime I try to make improvements a major set back occurs.

I just wish it would stop

 

[peaceboy23]

Had a better day today, although again tonight it's bad...i'm not sure what it is. I'm just feeling right now like there is too much around me to take it all in, i can't comprehend everything, although I am...but then I'm afraid that if I try to it will all get jumbled and i'll freak out...sigh...I almost went out tongiht, but was afraid at how I'd feel...it's like one point five steps forwart, one step backwards....although I guess that is still positive. Recently, I know it's just another obsession, it's been fear of death...like realizing that I"m going to die, and there is no escape, and then i get the panic feeling, although it comes just by itself sometimes, the feeling that there is no escape and that i have to run or go somewhere, although everywhere is just as scary...although that's traditional panic...i just need to remember that AND remember "focus outward, focus outward." It's the best remedy, it really is, it's just hard as all get out.

 

[peaceboy23]

Had a better day today, although again tonight it's bad...i'm not sure what it is. I'm just feeling right now like there is too much around me to take it all in, i can't comprehend everything, although I am...but then I'm afraid that if I try to it will all get jumbled and i'll freak out...sigh...I almost went out tongiht, but was afraid at how I'd feel...it's like one point five steps forwart, one step backwards....although I guess that is still positive. Recently, I know it's just another obsession, it's been fear of death...like realizing that I"m going to die, and there is no escape, and then i get the panic feeling, although it comes just by itself sometimes, the feeling that there is no escape and that i have to run or go somewhere, although everywhere is just as scary...although that's traditional panic...i just need to remember that AND remember "focus outward, focus outward." It's the best remedy, it really is, it's just hard as all get out.