[atx58]

I am in dire need of advice, I have never struggled this badly in my life. I have dealt with anxiety and depression for essentially as long as I can remember, obsessive and intrusive thinking are the biggest problems I have dealt with for the most part.

I am currently dealing with what I believe to be DP/DR, more so on the DR side of things. I am going to try and describe how I feel but its unbelievably difficult to even type out. I feel mostly like a zombie but a zombie I don't even know. I sometimes feel like I am having flashbacks but its real life. I don't know who I am or the person I am, I am constantly having existential thoughts (why am I me, how am I real, how am I conscious), I don't understand my life or what I do. I just feel hopeless. I cant stop thinking about any of it and its ruining my life.

Does anyone have advice for me to first find out if this is normal? Is this all DPDR as a result of my anxiety? Secondly, how I handle these intrusive thoughts? What are tools others have used for obsessive thinking? Any advice would be amazing.

 

[Elliot Palmberg]

swear this is not only weird, but also exhausting state to be in especially in these modern days where you have to keep up, Its impossible when DP:ed.
You feel like a zombie, like your brain is under shutdown, lockdown. Feels like you cant use more than 3 % of your brain. While normal people use 10 %.

For how long you had these DP symptoms