Depersonalized said:
Thats wierd, cause alcohol is the only thing that lets me feel normal and happy again at least for a little while. Totally brings me back, when it wears off I feel out of my body again. I haven't had a sip of alc. for more than a month now and it sux.
See, this is why I say, each and every case here, each individual has to be seen as a UNIQUE case.
For me, before I knew what I had ... DP/DR from age 4 or 5 that came and went and WASN'T scary to DP/DR that took over and terrified me... the "drug of choice" at my school (granted I graduated in the 1970s!) was alcohol. Ah, those were the good ol' days. Things were simpler then, LOL. :shock:
I recall the first party I attended in high school where there was beer and wine and hard alcohol... oh, pot too. Never have tried that. But I had about 1/2 a glass of wine on an empty stomach, and within about 20 minutes a MAJOR wave of DP/DR hit me. This ALWAYS happened.
I have never been drunk as a result. Also, as I get older, I can't even tolerate wine in small amounts as it gives me a "hangover" or what I assume a hangover might feel like. Headache, malaise, flu-like symptoms.
Interesting though. When I added Lamictal to my med combo my doctor said it was still OK to have the occasional glass or two of wine, or a drink (man I could use a Marguerita now and again -- I know, I sissy drink, 8) ). The Lamictal for some time made having a drink a pleasure. But only white wine or a Marguerita.
My favorite medical quotation,
Ask not what disease the person has, but rather what person the disease has.
(attributed to William Osler, M.D., neurologist)
I insist it is VERY important here to LITERALLY look at every case here with a fine-toothed comb. I believe we fall into a variety of categories, and hence a variety of treatments are necessary.
Also, my doctors always knew I didn't abuse medication (such as benzos). I have never had a problem with them. I also have very few side effects with medications. Obviously, my metabolism is different from many others here on the board. My brain is different.
I again recall an ongoing study at UCLA (I think) where they are dissecting human brains (dead ones, LOL :shock: ) and have found that
each and every brain is like a snowflake or a fingerprint. NO TWO ARE ALIKE.
We obviously have great similarities in our overall responses to meds, etc. And yet you must look at each person individually.