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·Ah guys,
Just too Paxil today and swear it was my idea. Went to the shopping center, did many many places, and again, tried to be calm. You know, inside. But I felt so confused.... in front of the automated teller machine, to have money, I suddently felt confused. I had trouble to think. I went out of the place, then the sun looked odd, and sadness and fear bring down in my heart. I tried to think of something's going on, of tonight, but I just felt less there, more in my thoughts, more confused and sad. Then I tried to figure out what causes that and how will I live with this for a long time. I said to myself : calm down, calm down, there is nothing terrible going to happen. But just to feel like that is terrible for me. The peak is when I meet people, especially boyfriend. Maybe I have high expectations about myself and would like to feel happy, but terror stays even in his arms. Only thing that help is .... sleep.
It's sure I thought to take anafranil instead, to try something new. It's sure. But all this time, I felt panick and teror inside, and feeling that my mind will never clear up. My mind races 100 miles an hour in searching for a solution. I can't control it, whil I live and try to do normal things. It's like a computer who is open at home, 24/7.
Janine, you know what I mean. Many people here know what I mean. It's VERY hard to know what helps and what doesn't help. After 2 bloody years, I didn't figure it out yet.
Cynthia
Just too Paxil today and swear it was my idea. Went to the shopping center, did many many places, and again, tried to be calm. You know, inside. But I felt so confused.... in front of the automated teller machine, to have money, I suddently felt confused. I had trouble to think. I went out of the place, then the sun looked odd, and sadness and fear bring down in my heart. I tried to think of something's going on, of tonight, but I just felt less there, more in my thoughts, more confused and sad. Then I tried to figure out what causes that and how will I live with this for a long time. I said to myself : calm down, calm down, there is nothing terrible going to happen. But just to feel like that is terrible for me. The peak is when I meet people, especially boyfriend. Maybe I have high expectations about myself and would like to feel happy, but terror stays even in his arms. Only thing that help is .... sleep.
It's sure I thought to take anafranil instead, to try something new. It's sure. But all this time, I felt panick and teror inside, and feeling that my mind will never clear up. My mind races 100 miles an hour in searching for a solution. I can't control it, whil I live and try to do normal things. It's like a computer who is open at home, 24/7.
Janine, you know what I mean. Many people here know what I mean. It's VERY hard to know what helps and what doesn't help. After 2 bloody years, I didn't figure it out yet.
Cynthia
