I feel this constantly. I dont know if this is checking in or something but its this feeling when im frustrated of everything and giving up on trying because things never change anyway. Im here still but things are just wrong and i cant stop obbsessing about it. All of my time goes thinking this. My mind just creates random things. These are same things.. Many times over and over again. I dont know what i should do about it. Its just my life. I feel im living my past. Never really present. My mind always stops me. My thooughts stop me living or trying. Then i just do everything wrong and things i realky dont wanna do or think. Because i feel heres no hope. And i just have to do something even making all worse. Then it goes down and down everyday. I find myself again totally hopeless and forget what it was like to feel better. I just cant control this.