[peaceboy23]

So I'm starting to get really angry at the fact that I have this and that it is limiting me. I thought about that tonight at work. I realize that eventually i'm gonna have to S*it or get off the pot with all this, and I think maybe this is hopeful (although I've felt this way before and i feel just as bad as ever now). I'm tired of living with this, and i've hit the point where I realize I have to change my behavior and thought process. Now the only problem is figuring out how to do it, really WANTING to do it, and following through with it. Just some late night thoughts.

 

[jake]

peaceboy, I don't know if you are still up but I just wanted to say I feel the same way, especially wanting to change in all CAPS, wnating to change the stuck feeling, the ways of thnkinng. I can aonly offer maybe that I am teling myself it CAN be done, and that other ppl here have leanrt to change so we can too. Right now I have insomnia and it's been raining for two days and I'm coming off hospital drugs and anesthesia so I feel pretty weird. I wish this was a chat room for real, in real-time. I realize I need to say hey you know, it is never too late to start your life over as far as the mental, emotional stuff. Some physical things even can be reversed. So for me, trying to say I am me, now,and I wanna change too. Its kinda confusing. Like I wish I could keep what I recalll was good about me and then just build on that. Hope this helps in some way. And if you're awake still, reply back, maybe we can talk eachother into tiredness and going to sleep!!! BTW I hated that hospital stay and should be glad to be home but the lonely and DP followed me there and ba here too!!! Damn. But I did get an important surgery done plus can't seem to absorb it was really me thta just did all that. Rambling now..take it ez, see ya soon,
---Jake

 

[Guest]

It has ruined a lot of my life, too. The worst symptom I have is nausea. I know I won't vomit, but if I use my throat too much, I get dry heaves. It's so unbearable, and when I just found out this is a symptom of DP, I was like, "Oh ****" because I have an appointment with a GI on December 1st, and I hope the nausea is physical and not DP-related. I don't want to have DP, and I'm not 100% sure that I have it...but I hope I'm okay...

I hate feeling this way all the time. Sometimes I just want to give up on life...

 

[jake]

Hang in there Nintendo it could be physical and u are very wise to seek out the info on it. It's also ok if its not someting they find physical, then you'll just know its one of the symptoms of your being nervous and such, and you'll know to keep on seeking answers and suggestions and all thta for relief. I had to smile at Nintendo cuz I still have Super Nintendo and never got into the PS1 or 2 or even XBox. I still play theold cassete games. Choplifter and Yoshis Island are my favorites. Feel better soon,
---Jake

 

[Monkeydust]

I always found it hard to distinguish what I was angry at. I used to sometimes say that I was angry at the DP, the anxiety, whatever. I sometimes would think "if only I didn't have this I could do x , y, z". Then I realized that this wasn't really a valid excuse.

So long as DP's part of you - a symptom originating from who you are and what you're doing - you're never so much being angry at the DP as you're angry at yourself. Part of overcoming it is simply accepting it's the way you are for now, and working postively and practically toward changing it.

 

[Guest]

Hang in there Nintendo it could be physical and u are very wise to seek out the info on it. It's also ok if its not someting they find physical, then you'll just know its one of the symptoms of your being nervous and such, and you'll know to keep on seeking answers and suggestions and all thta for relief. I had to smile at Nintendo cuz I still have Super Nintendo and never got into the PS1 or 2 or even XBox. I still play theold cassete games. Choplifter and Yoshis Island are my favorites. Feel better soon,
---Jake

Thank you.

And Super Nintendo is awesome! You're so lucky you have one! I had a Sega Genesis at the time, believe it or not. :lol:

I have a Sega Genesis, Game Boy Pocket, N64, Game Boy Color, GameCube, Game Boy Advance SP and a Nintendo DS. Plus, I plan to pre-order a Nintendo Revolution (which can download old games!)

I hope the throat thing isn't DP-related, but I do get these strange feelings where I won't feel real...like I'm in a dream. Then I'll be like "If I can move my hand, I'm real." So I'll move my hand and confirm that I'm real, but I'll still ask myself questions like "Why am I here?" and such.

Oh well, playing video games makes me happy again. :lol: