[Guest]

I have had at least 1000 moments where I have felt that I am at my breaking point and that death was inevitable. However, i have made it through every rough patch and have come back to reality somewhat every time. What I do not understand is that when the next bad spell arrives, you think that having experience on your side would help assure you that all will be okay. That is not the case. There is no such thing as re assurance during these times. Your mind tends to tell you "Oh, you got lucky the last time. This is the real deal." I always think during these times that the horror will stay forever and that for it to pass would be impossible. Yet, I always come back to reality and i dont know how!!

I cannot tell you how many times ive been to hell and back with DP, anxiety, drugs. Is what I am describing an illusion of the mind, or are we really going to die? Does anyone know what I am talking about?

-Neal

 

[Guest]

Actually, on the whole, I feel the opposite way. Whenever the 'fear' creeps in, I have been able to use my experience to ward away most of the pain that comes with it. I still have some pretty rough, lengthy dpdr spells though. Experience has helped me have anxiety without the fear of death, or anxiety attacks, so its got some benefit.

 

[sebastian]

I know exactly what you mean, Narc. I think it's just an element of the Panic Attack. We feel as though "we are going to die", and no amount of reassurance will reassure us in those desperate but usually brief moments of abject horror.

s.