[Guest]

Hi,

Me again... I try not to come often.... but sometime I miss people who do understand, other times I hate people who understands...

I had a so-so Christmas, and I am more anxious, so more obsessed by meds. It goes along. It's incredible how much time I think of that.

Every time I feel not good, I think : Oh my God I feel confused again - What if I was alone in the mail, I'd get lost - I really can't work, like that, I am CONFUSED! LOST! - What's happening to me? - How can I heal? - I can't heal- Let'S take more clonazepam - )after) I feel stoned, more confused, that is not the answer. - How will I heal? - I'd probably better take one antidep then stop those thoughts- Which one? - Pros/cons.... - Hey, I am dp and tired... - I want to sleep - Better to have psychoanalysis - I don't want to!!!!!!!!!!! I don't like that! so I will not heal?!!! - I want to forget my life.... All is crap - I wont go to this board anymore

(then all the time my boyfriend or friend talks to me!)

(then I go back here, cry alone, and then I come to this board).

On and on and on.... How to stop those thoughts?????

I am so stupid

Please thanks for your posts (no anti-Cynthia posts please)
xxx

 

[dreamcatcher]

cynthia if you find comfort here then its not a bad place to be......i know we all have to try to focus on other things but it is easier to talk to others who know what you are going through......you are trying every possible thing you can to beat this....dont be so hard on yourself

 

[university girl]

Cynthia... one step at a time. Focus on one thing and one thing only. This has helped me loads.

 

[g-funk]

Yeah that is so true, try not to get overwhelmed by too many worries at one time, stay in the moment. I, just like you, used to get really upset about not working. I felt guilty on top of everything else.

It really helps to try and block out the thoughts about things you can't change, ie worrying about work doesn't help the situation. Its difficult and I still have to remind myself every now and then. Its so in-built in us anxious types. just tell yourself that you won't solve the 'problem' by looking deeper into it, infact the opposite. My dp is obsessional too, and I really found that it helped. I know Ive recommended it before but 'Stop Thinking Start Living' by Richard Carlson helps you get a perspective on 'thoughts'. Try it Cynthia, they may publish it in French?

I guess its a variation on 'focsing outward' but explains how it works etc. Makes so much sense that it immediately changed my thought processes. I still have to remind myself of what I've learnt, everytime I feel my brain start to run out of petrol!

 

[g-funk]

Carlson's step-by-step guide explains:

How your thoughts determine how you feel.
Why thinking about problems only makes them worse.
That thoughts come and go ? you are free to choose at any moment which to hold on to and which to let go.
Straightforward methods for conquering depression.
How to dismiss negative thoughts and discover inner contentment.
How to overcome lifelong pessimism and start really living

http://www.amazon.co.uk/exec/obidos/ASI ... 74-8167628