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Hi everyone.

I am seeking help for what I am currently going through.

Something changed in me 2016 and I know I do not feel right, it was like I switched into a different state of perception and feeling. Still to this day, I remember how I used to feel and I know that what I am going through is not right. At times when I am doing something like sitting in my house or looking out the window, I have memories of how I used to feel when doing that but I am/feel different now and wish to feel like how I used to, like emotionally and perception.

Nothing happened in 2016 apart from going on holiday in July. All this started around October 2016.

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Constant brain fog, heavy headed and feel tired/fatigued. I am detached from myself and do not feel connected with my body, like looking at my arms, feels like not a part of me, I feel like I am in a dream and in a haze. Emotionally numb but can feel anxiety and panic with no issues at times. I can carryout daily tasks and work perfect, my mental capacity or memory is not affected and I feel sharp as I have always been and fully aware of what I am doing or what is going on in front of me. Just feel like I am in auto pilot and different from how I normally would feel. I feel like I am in a 24/7 hangover, not one day I have had a break from this.

Eyes: Constant light sensitivity (Everything is bright to my eyes and it has changed the way I view things especially in dark environments, seems that my eyes are blurry from being light sensitive) Visual snow. My eyes feel heavy and tired and bloodshot at times.

Sleeping: I sleep around 10:30pm to 6am but wake up like I have only had 3 hours sleep and really heavy headed and groggy with dry mouth. This head space feeling doesn't go away, it is connected to the above symptoms. Some days I wake up really fatigued and feel like I am about to come down with something but never do.

Body: My neck and upper back feels so stiff and tense, It is really noticeable especially the back of my neck can be warm to the touch. Sometimes there is a shooting nerve sensation near my lower neck/upper back. My head feels like there is pressure in it and I get headaches and pains inside my head.

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Absolutely 100 percent dp/dr. Without a doubt and most of the symptoms you listed are general anxiety symptoms. Dp is driven by anxiety but dp has its own symptoms and so does anxiety but they are all in the same if that makes sense. Fix your anxiety and dp will go. Sounds like you may have a touch of depression with it which is natural to have when your experiencing all of this.
 

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Absolutely 100 percent dp/dr. Without a doubt and most of the symptoms you listed are general anxiety symptoms. Dp is driven by anxiety but dp has its own symptoms and so does anxiety but they are all in the same if that makes sense. Fix your anxiety and dp will go. Sounds like you may have a touch of depression with it which is natural to have when your experiencing all of this.
 

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Body: My neck and upper back feels so stiff and tense, It is really noticeable especially the back of my neck can be warm to the touch. Sometimes there is a shooting nerve sensation near my lower neck/upper back. My head feels like there is pressure in it and I get headaches and pains inside my head.
A lot of your symptoms sound like ME/CFS. A number of people with ME/CFS trace it to various kinds of neck and/or upper back issues, and it certainly appears that's where your problems are.coming from, A good number of these people also experience various kinds of dpdr symtpoms. I would recommend seeing a really good health care providor (such as a NUCCA practitioner) who can begin to do gentle work on your system. Anything that inhibits circulation and nerve flow around the head and neck area can cause any number of "mental" conditions, including tinnitus. It sounds to me like your dpdr symptoms are likely stemming primarily from physical strucutral issues.
 

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A lot of your symptoms sound like ME/CFS. A number of people with ME/CFS trace it to various kinds of neck and/or upper back issues, and it certainly appears that's where your problems are.coming from, A good number of these people also experience various kinds of dpdr symtpoms. I would recommend seeing a really good health care providor (such as a NUCCA practitioner) who can begin to do gentle work on your system. Anything that inhibits circulation and nerve flow around the head and neck area can cause any number of "mental" conditions, including tinnitus. It sounds to me like your dpdr symptoms are likely stemming primarily from physical strucutral issues.
Looking at ME/CFS I would say I do not have that, my symptoms are no way as extreme as that condition. The neck and upper back issues I get on the occasion and they are minor compared to the mental state/perception/emotion I am in. I have suffered for years with Anxiety and been on Sertraline for 10 years for it and came off completely last year. I feel no better coming off the Sertraline as I still feel how I have been feeling since 2016. I feel in a different state of mind and detached.
 

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As with anything, I think you need to approach it from as many angles as possible. If you have anxiety, then I would seek out places in nature, or try to be around animals and pets, as they can both be very grounding. I'm not knowledgable on the various kinds of treatments (drugs) that are common for dpdr, but I would still advise that you get some therapeutic work done on your neck and upper back, regardless of whether it's contributing to your dpdr. I would suspect it's at least contributing to your anxiety. -- All the Best!
 

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Its trial and error unfortunately....There is no one size fits all fix for this condition...

You are very lucky that it has not interfered with your daily functionality...My advice is if you are getting on with life reasonably normally and arent crippled with anxiety and depression just keep on moving and dont give what you are experiencing too much focus...

Trust me you are actually not that bad by the sounds of it and as a result I seriously suggest you just keep moving along with life as normal...

If you loose your functionality you will realise what true mental ill health is all about....Its not nice to say the least...

Dont feed something thats not there yet........Thats my advice...
 

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Its trial and error unfortunately....There is no one size fits all fix for this condition...

You are very lucky that it has not interfered with your daily functionality...My advice is if you are getting on with life reasonably normally and arent crippled with anxiety and depression just keep on moving and dont give what you are experiencing too much focus...

Trust me you are actually not that bad by the sounds of it and as a result I seriously suggest you just keep moving along with life as normal...

If you loose your functionality you will realise what true mental ill health is all about....Its not nice to say the least...

Dont feed something thats not there yet........Thats my advice...
Yeah I can get on with what I need to do but why do I feel so detached. Talking to people face to face, I feel like I am doing it through a screen and that I am far away from my body. The light sensitivity is so strong, it makes my perception of things weird and distorted, mainly in low light environments and I really feel like I am high every day. I wake up every day with a hangover, despite not drinking. I do everything in autopilot. I really don't feel myself and haven't since 2016. Yes I need to keep my anxiety under wraps to move forward. I think I am suffering from depression as well.

Are there any other conditions that could cause me to feel like I have dp/dr?
 

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As with anything, I think you need to approach it from as many angles as possible. If you have anxiety, then I would seek out places in nature, or try to be around animals and pets, as they can both be very grounding. I'm not knowledgable on the various kinds of treatments (drugs) that are common for dpdr, but I would still advise that you get some therapeutic work done on your neck and upper back, regardless of whether it's contributing to your dpdr. I would suspect it's at least contributing to your anxiety. -- All the Best!
That is a good idea on getting work on my neck/upper back as I think that could be contributing towards my tinnitus that I get. I need to keep my anxiety controlled. It's strange as I can go weeks without feeling anxious and yet on a sub conscious level I am in heightened alert. It is a like my mind is tricking me.
 

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Yup, pretty much feel the same way. Functional, memory sharp and doing tasks everyday without a problem but something doesn’t feel right visually and body detached. As someone mentioned, it’s trial and error. So find things that can help
 

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Yup, pretty much feel the same way. Functional, memory sharp and doing tasks everyday without a problem but something doesn't feel right visually and body detached. As someone mentioned, it's trial and error. So find things that can help
What do you find that works for you?
 

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That's my problem. I'm having trouble finding things that truly can help me recover. It's like something would help for a little bit and my body would built tolerance. Pretty much distraction but doesn't last long. I think the one thing that helped a lot was a magnesium complex by life extension that I tried months ago but it was also more like a laxative and would make my stomach upset. I might try it again but at a lower dose. I was taking like 500 mg every 4 hours
 
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