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Okay, so long story short: I OD on edibles early last month. Read up on my first post if you are curious on how it happened. Anyways, I have short questions and I will give you my circumstances. It started on November 2nd, and have started to "feel better" around December 2nd. Maybe I am recovering? Or just getting used to the symptoms. There used to me way more symptoms and a lot more extreme, but I noticed some of them fading partially if not completely.

#1) How long does it take for the visual symptoms to go away? I am only dealing with a slight "high" vision feeling. I feel like it has been improving, but then again I could just be getting used to it? I remember everything being in slow motion, but as the days go by I am feeling like everything is almost back to "normal speed".

#2) After you stopped thinking about it, how long did it take after that? I can go about a day without thinking about it, before feeling the need to research for an hour or so. Then go a day without thinking about it. Is this a step in recovery? And if so, how long did it take for it to go away before realizing it was gone?

I am not using any meds or going to therapy. I will never get on meds, and I was about to go to therapy, but I feel like I have a decent grasp at this situation do tackle it on my own. I used to be highly stressed about this situation - especially my vision. My vision still affects me, but I am much more relaxed and don't care and most of the time don't even notice it. If I do, then I am accepting it moving forward. I used to be scared of this visual problem but I am caring less and less about it. I have been following the suggestions in this "Recovery" section seriously and find it helps out a ton! :)

Side note: I notice every now and then, a slight tingle feeling in my head. I am not sure if this is because of the "chemical imbalance" trying to go back to normal, but it feels good to be honest. Occurs when I am listening to music or relaxed.

Thank you!
 

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That is awesome, you are most definitely recovering! My spouse had that fear as well, driven by the DPDR, that recovery could not happen and that they were just getting used to the symptoms. I can tell you with 100% certainty that the symptoms are just fading, you are not getting used to them. Let the path take its course, recovery takes time, but understanding that and realizing that, and realizing that you are seeing symptoms fade is amazing and absolutely shows you are recovering.

To answer your first question, that was probably one of the symptoms that took longer for my spouse to see fade, but giving you a timeline or telling you that yours will behave the same would be a disservice to you because everyone is different (we all grew up in different backgrounds, live different lives, have slightly different symptoms, etc.). My advice: treat it like the rest of your symptoms, it will fade with time, let it be and stop letting yourself worry about it. Just like your other symptoms have faded, that one will too, don't worry yourself with when or how, instead continue to move forward and forget that it's there and it will go away.

As for the second question, it's really kind of the same answer. Don't let yourself stick on how long or when, it does you no good to ask those questions, because bluntly putting it, no one can answer that and no amount of research will help you find that answer. Lessening your amount of research time is 100% helping yourself to recover. You have to keep reminding yourself that it doesn't matter when, it only matters that it will, and that it's more important to live your life and go be social as that will help you heal. Try to set a goal for yourself, limit your time and wean yourself from that habit (much like you are already). Maybe the next time you're going to limit yourself to 45 minutes for research, or even 30 minutes, and continue to remind yourself that you are seeing yourself healing, so there is no reason to research something that is obviously fixing itself, while continuing to limit that time until you no longer do it. You'll find that you'll start being able to tell yourself you don't need to look more and more, and eventually you'll stop.

I am glad you are not using meds, that is a huge plus. As for therapy, I can't speak on that too much; If you feel like you have learned techniques to help manage your stress and anxiety on your own, that's really the best thing you can do to help continue healing and avoiding stress and anxiety in the future.

I am glad to see that you are doing better, continue to do what you're doing, keep limiting your research time, and continue to see how well you are healing, and you'll be fine in no time :D
 

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Thank you for the reply :) seems like I am going "two steps forward and one step back", so would rather take this any day over what it was like at first. Just waiting until I get to the point where I don't "step back" any more!
 

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Thank you for the reply :) seems like I am going "two steps forward and one step back", so would rather take this any day over what it was like at first. Just waiting until I get to the point where I don't "step back" any more!
Taking steps back is definitely okay! It's like a trail going up a mountain, sometimes the trail starts going back downhill instead of continue to climb up, and sometimes you have to walk further downhill than you want, but you're still walking up the trail towards the top, which is why you have to remind yourself that ultimately you will be heading back uphill again, and eventually you'll reach the top. The closer you get to the top, the faster you work your way up hill as well, and the less "downhill" sections you will come across :)
 

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Recovery is not linear...it's not like when you have a broken leg, where day 1 it heals a bit, day 2 it heals more, and so on.

Recovery is like: You'll have moments of calm, moments where you are more engaged in life, etc, until you eventually have more of this and fewer setbacks.
 
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