HI, I had depersonalization a few weeks ago which was triggered by smoking marijuana. After about 4 days it went away, and a week or so later I tried smoking again. After this I felt extremely paranoid that it'd happen to me again, and I went to bed. Since then ( it's been about 2-3 days) I haven't been feeling so depersonalized but more so very paranoid. I've been feeling paranoid of becoming brain dead, dying, having a stroke , having fluid in my brain, and just basically feeling that I'm going to die soon. Is this normal? Am I going to die soon?
The exact same thing happened to me when I was 21 years of age. I am now 62.
I have read much on DP etc but you are the first person I have come across who has mentioned the word 'paranoi'. I suffered from it terribly and did for sometime and at times still do, but very rarely and not life-threatening as I felt back then. I sought help but there was none around back in my day and in the end I had to work it out myself. I wish I could say to you it was easy as it was far from that. But I would 'push through it' constantly telling myself all was okay. I guess a case of 'feel the fear but do it anyway'. But these days there is so much more information and help regarding DP and I would suggest you try and find someone who knows what you are talking about and what can be done. YOU WILL GET THROUGH THIS I PROMISE YOU - AND ALWAYS REMEMBER IT IS NOT REAL!!
I feel you. Felt the same way for months, and still do. It always feels like im finally recovering and then bam the DP is back and its like starting from square 1 all over again. And the feeling that somethings wrong with you, all the diseases you've spent hours researching, its called hypochondria. Ive had it since i was 12 years old, first I was convinced i had multiple sclerosis, then a brain tumor, then congestive heart failure, i even thought i had schizophrenia, and the list goes on. but the most important thing to remember is youre fine. you dont have any of these things and your brain is trying to trick you. Easier said than done though, its a hard battle to fight. the human brain is stubborn sometimes lol
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