I haven't been on this forum in a while, but I just wanted to comment. I suffered from DP 6 years ago. I was in a constant state of detachment for 2 years while working and trying to do everyday things. I will be completely honest. It was the most awful experience because I had to go through the motions of life while feeling absolutely nothing and seeing everything through a veil. Over time, I learned to accept it, and the condition slowly improved. I will never forget the day I was standing outside and I finally felt connected to the vivid colors around me. This would probably sound boring and meaningless to people who have never been disconnected, but to me it meant the world. It meant that I was coming back and starting to feel alive again. Currently, I am struggling with anxiety, but I can feel emotions again. I just have to keep my stress level down and not let my anxiety get too intense. I just wanted to share this to give hope to anyone suffering from dp/dr. (I hate that I had to go through DP, but it has given me a new perspective on life. I look around at people who complain about insignificant things, and I am just thankful that I can experience life again.) There is something though I was not expecting---now, I am extremely sensitive to the energy of those around me. I feel very drained around certain people and I need a lot of time alone.
Hi, allison84. For the most part, it is gone. I am not detached anymore, and I feel connected to reality now. When I am in a situation that is stressful, sometimes I can feel the fight-or-flight sensation coming back. I just have to really focus and keep myself grounded in those moments. But, I have to remember that I am susceptible to dissociation because I have been through it before. During my recovery, I have just been dealing with my emotions coming back. It was overwhelming at first because I was numb for over 2 years. I was so used to feeling numb, and then gradually I started to feel again. I cried a lot during this time because it was so overwhelming. This forum helped me so much when I was suffering from dp, and that's why I come back on here to tell my story and help others who may have questions. (The hardest part of dp was that time had lost meaning. I also hated the veil. I hated feeling that barrier between me and the physical world. And, I do remember the delayed perception, too.)
I've been dp dr free for years. The main cause for me was doing things completely out of line with who I was. I was pursuing fashion design, which I hated, to get to live in New York. I had to leave NY and slowly I started to learn my true passions- history, business, writing, singing. When I started to follow my heart miracles happened.
I also had abuse as a kid. I was angry at the person that caused it but didn't know how to express my anger. There were many issues around that.
I also had an eating disorder which was a trigger.
When we hide our true selves- by not following our true interests, by hiding our emotions, by being in codependent relationships, by not standing up for ourselves, etcetera, we get DP.
Medication helps but I completely disagree with anyone who thinks that it's the be all end all. You have to learn the causes and conditions.
And for gods sake, you are not going crazy. You have no clue how far away from psychosis you are. It's something completely different.
There is a guy I think it's DM...read his posts. They are key to the answers you are looking for.
Hi fighter I overcomed dp for February 2017 now my feelings cames back stronger but I became soo anxious socially its ruining my life I feel that I reborne all my skills has disappeared since my recovery.I don't know how to deal with this hell I think now to take an SSRI to relief my social anxiety that triggered maybe by the blank mind state after the recovery.any advices to re engage in life again ? Is this temporary ? And what about SSRI to pass this period ? Thanks
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