[Mr confused]

i'm brave and patient that i can't believe it !!!
1.i forget almost all of my life memories exept the scary ones
2.i got blank minded then readed creepypasta stories and now i got nightmares and panic attacks so i can't sleep
3.a benign tumor stared growing in the back of my neck
4.i can't get joy from anything even thought i try to socialize and distract myself
5.i can't recognize my family (i'm scared my parents will die and i didn't feel their love enough because of dp)
6.i had dp for 5 months its getting worse
7.i got infection on my right eye so it's swollen and hurt
8.i feel out of time i don't feel if its night or day or today
9.my body is automatic and my mind thinking things overwhelming and i'm detached from both
10.the moments of consiousnes are getting shorter and shorter
11.there is a question bothering me : how i'm supposed to continue living
12.i lost my self and free will and emotion i feel like a hollow or a lonely soul
i feel lonely depressed anxiouss i forget how comfort or normal feel like and there is always that sound that say you know u don't have endure this you can just end it

 

[Mr confused]

yes i tried everything meds made things worse cbt did nothing exorcism did nothing cause dp doesn't involve demons or evil spirits
been going to the gym for 2 months then stopped the detachment was getting worse so i tried dieting and mediating nothing work

 

[Mr confused]

and im not afraid i know im here and everything is here but i want to feel it