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almost 3 months with dp/dr but I know it will soon go away

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I've been suffering from dp/dr almost three months now. It happened cause of extreme stress at college, as it was the first year and I moved in a different city, away from home. I have always been an 'over thinker ' though, I always put pressure to myself to do the things in the right way, so I always been a little bit anxious person, but that always has been OK, it is in me genes I think.
But one night, I felt totally overwhelmed, I felt a big sadness in me, world turned into a dream, I didn't know who I was, I was scared as hell, I had no hope, I thought I wouldn't see my family anymore, I got fever, it was all terrible!!!
Then I called my dad, he took me back home and I felt better, I was very tired and fell asleep with the hope to be better tomorrow. But when I woke up the next day, everything was worse, I didn't know where I was, my family members seemed unfamiliar, I had the feeling that I've experienced this before, that all my life has been fake, that I always had dp but never noticed it etc etc. So I was very sad, I felt extremely numb and nothing made sense to me. But I thought this is nothing, it will go away, tomorrow everything will turn to be normal, Ok so I didn't panic that much and told nothing to my family. But as days were gone, this was hitting me even more and I felt worse and worse every single day. So i googled my symptoms, I understood I had dp, I joined a group in fb, which was a mistake, so I got more and more obsessed and scared and hopeless as I read their awful stories. But then a guy helped me and told me that this will go away within months, that my dp was mild and it will take months to totally recover from it.
Since then, I have experienced awful days, doing the things as usual but having millions of thoughts in my head, and having mood swings every 10 minutes. I remember when I was 7 or 8 I experienced dp for a couple of weeks but that got away on its own. I also suffered the death of my grandma 4 years ago, and also had two surgeries 2 years ago, so i think this has caused a little trauma and triggered dp with all the other circumstances. Now I have thoughts and feelings that I haven't recover from that, that I always had dp, especially during summer, something tells me it's all fake, I know it's not true, but these thoughts are killing me. When I go out, everything seems normal but then I remember I have dp so the cycle of thoughts begins. I had days when I have been dp free. I know it will go away, but I'm sometimes scared. It is an obsession, sometimes I laugh because it is so simple yet so complicated, it is nothing and everything at the same time.
I just wanted to share my story here!If anyone feels like this just let me know, I would appreciate it a lot!
I know this will completely go away, we will feel even better after this, we will be more confident, this experience will help us to not take anything for granted and to cherish every moment of life. We are all normal, we are just struggling a little bit. God bless you all!!!
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